Faking It by Beth Reekles

Author:Beth Reekles
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Wattpad WEBTOON Book Group

Twenty-four

After a few more days of brief, infrequent texts, I finally manage to see Jaxon again on Wednesday, meeting him for dinner after work.

Under the circumstances, I’m not sure if this is the sort of date where we’ll actually get to have dinner. I wish I could say it’s because the sexual chemistry will be so intense after over a week of not seeing each other that we’ll want to get out of there as soon as possible, but I have to face the reality that he might only be seeing me to dump me. There was something in the tone of his message when he finally replied, finally suggested we meet up, that set alarm bells ringing.

Can you dump someone if you haven’t even asked them to be your girlfriend yet?

I feel queasy all day before the date. I keep sweating and my heart thunders sickeningly every time I think about it. My manager notices, but once I explain that I might be heading to a “breakup date” this evening, she’s more interested in psyching me up than making sure I forget all about it and focus on sending emails instead.

On her advice—and Lena’s, too—I make sure to put in considerable effort. Lena says it’s so he knows what he’s giving up if he wants to dump me; my manager Jenny says it’s so I feel so bloody good about myself I won’t even care if he does. Tally sees my messages in the group chat but I guess is too busy to reply.

The problem isn’t that I think he’s going to break up with me.

It’s that I don’t know why, or what I’ve done wrong. It’s that I think maybe we do need to call it quits but I’m still kind of apprehensive—and by “kind of apprehensive” I mean totally fucking terrified of losing my one solid chance in a while at a real relationship, because Harry doesn’t count.

I get ready for the date, and hope that an epiphany will strike, and sort of hope that Jaxon does break up with me so that I don’t have to make a decision about him.

I keep my outfit fairly casual, since it’s only dinner at some chain restaurant—jeans-and-a-nice-top kind of casual—but I take time to curl my hair and put on my favorite bold lipstick and some cute jewelry to elevate the look.

Just before I get to the restaurant, I check my reflection in a shop window.

It doesn’t fill me with the oh yeah, he’s making a big mistake, I’m amazing vibes I hoped it would: the elasticated cuffs on my sleeves are chafing my wrists, making me fidget, and the strap on one of my sandals looks like it might break any second. Between that and the I’m about to get dumped premonition, my confidence is beginning to fail me now I’m almost there.

Then I hear, “Soph! Hey!”

And look up to see Jaxon a little way ahead of me, approaching from the opposite direction. He looks good: jeans and a crisp white short-sleeved shirt that he manages to pull off as smart-casual.

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