Bulletproof by Maci Bookout

Author:Maci Bookout [Bookout, Maci]
Language: eng
Format: epub, mobi
Publisher: Post Hill Press
Published: 2015-07-21T05:00:00+00:00

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The idea of getting into a new relationship while being a teen mom to a toddler had always been intimidating, and I wasn’t sure how I was supposed to go about it. I wasn’t reading any guidebooks regarding that situation. Even though Kyle and I had a history and a strong relationship, I was still hesitant about Bentley and him. I knew it would be a deal breaker if Kyle couldn’t be there for Bentley and be involved. I kind of eased into it. I started testing the waters before things got serious. If Bentley was doing something funny, I’d send Kyle a photo to see how he reacted. Or we’d Skype, and Bentley would be there with me while we talked. That helped me get a feel for how Kyle was taking to him. To my relief, he always seemed very confident about it. It never felt like he was faking it or his enthusiasm was forced. He really seemed to enjoy Bentley and take an interest in him, asking me how he was and what he was doing. That took a lot of pressure off and cleared the way for us to move forward.

We moved pretty fast. Not long after we got back from Spring Break, I decided to move to Nashville for a few months.

There were different reasons for that decision. Fifty percent of it was because my best friends and Kyle were there. And fifty percent was because I’d been living back with my parents, and even though I absolutely loved them and they were an unbelievable source of help and support, it was probably the one and only time in my life when they kind of drove me nuts. I’d lived with Ryan for a year and a half, but when I moved back home, it was almost like they forgot I’d ever been on my own. It was the first time Bentley had lived in their house, too, and it was my first taste of someone else actually being involved in my parenting process. I didn’t expect it to be so nerve-wracking. Every day my parents would check up on every detail.

“What did Bentley eat today?”

“Did he sleep?”

“When was the last time he ate?”

“Have you changed his diaper?”

“Has he had a bath?”

It was like they forgot I’d already been a mom for a year and a half. They thought I was still completely new to it. My dad was even worse than my mom with the Bentley questions. There were times when I’d be like, “Dad. My child is alive and healthy. He’s not starving. It’s fine.” Of course, I would never talk back to my parents or refuse to do something they told me to do, because that’s just not who I’ve ever been. I definitely wasn’t going to disrespect them while I was living in their house and they were continuing to give me an insane amount of help and support. So I could never find a way to say, “You’ve got to stop doing this.

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