The First Sun: A Novel by Mindi Hope
Author:Mindi Hope [Hope, Mindi]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2024-01-30T00:00:00+00:00
CHAPTER 18 â Abby, then
Doctor Jay sits in the oversized leather chair across from me. His bushy white eyebrows scrunch together as he tilts backward to look at the playing cards in his hands. Iâm five months into therapy, and so far, Iâm baffled by its purpose. When I first started coming here, he spent our designated one-hour session asking open-ended conversation starters, like âTell me about yourselfâ or âTenth grade sounds so fun, Iâd like to hear all about it.â Those attempts to get me to pour my heart out to him ended the same way, with the sound of crickets filling the room. After a few sessions, he changed tactics and added puzzles and card games as he asked questions. Admittedly, time goes by faster with the games, but thereâs still no discussion about anything relevantânothing about the panic attacks, the fire, or my deadbeat dadâs departure.
When this weekâs session ends, heâs just beaten me at the second game of Phase 10, though he tried hard to let me win by throwing me the cards I needed on purpose. As I exit to leave, he stands and adjusts his glasses up his nose, the hem of his pants swallowing up his wing-tip shoes.
âIâd like to give you an assignment to complete before our next session,â he smiles. âI know you love to draw. Iâd like you to create something for me to hang in my office. Itâs very drab. It can be anything you like.â He smiles and lets his hand gesture to the small space filled with books stacked in messy piles along the floor. The walls, painted a dull shade of brown, are blank but for a pre-print poster of a monarch butterfly that reads âtransform.â
I nod my head once and hurry out the door to my motherâs waiting car. Doctor Jay is nice, and I appreciate that heâs trying to help me. I suppose if I must go to therapy, there would be worse options. But Iâm never going to give him the information he wants. The whole thing is a massive waste of time and my momâs money. But she remains undeterred, no matter how hard I try to convince her I donât need therapy.
âHow was it, honey?â Mom asks the moment I open the passenger-side car door. I grunt an inaudible noise of affirmation. Doctor Jay has met with my mother several times following our sessions. Sometimes, they meet in private, and sometimes, Iâm allowed to listen in. Heâs asked her not to question me about our treatment sessions so I can learn to trust him, but he doesnât know my mother. Everything is her business, and she does not relent. Ever. This is one of several reasons I will never discuss anything with him.
âDid he refill your medication?â she inquires, to which I reluctantly hand her the small piece of paper containing the prescription.
âI donât want to take the medicine, Mom. Iâm okay without it. I havenât had a panic attack in almost three weeks.
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