My Soul Loves: Hidden Creek Series #1 by Barbara Gee

Author:Barbara Gee [Gee, Barbara]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2017-12-14T16:00:00+00:00

Chapter 19

Another whole week passed, and still no word from Myla. I texted her a few more times and emailed her. She’d call if she was getting my messages, I knew she would, but I had to keep trying. Where in the world could she be that there was absolutely no communication?

So many times I picked up my phone and brought up Jude’s number. I wanted contact with him, even if it was just a text to say I’m still trying, and still missing you.

I didn’t do it, though. It wouldn’t be right to try to keep a link with him when I was only going to sever it in the end.

As the days passed, I began to doubt whether he even wanted to hear from me anymore. I was afraid my unexplained about-face had made him realize I was more trouble than I was worth.

I felt myself withdrawing more and more into a hermit-like shell. I didn’t go out, and I didn’t communicate with my family except through short texts saying I was too busy to talk. When I’d heard a noise the other day and looked out my office window to see Hannah knocking on my back door, I’d stayed put. A minute later, she’d given up and gone back through the gate.

I kept working crazy hours, trying to escape. I had dark circles under my eyes, and my neck and shoulders burned with tension. I was angry at myself and angry at Myla, even though I knew she was completely innocent. She had no idea her extreme reaction to a breakup three years ago was causing my own extreme reaction now, and she had no idea how desperately I needed to talk to her.

Hannah came over again on Thursday. This time she caught me in the kitchen, and since she could see me through the open blind on the door, I had to let her in. She handed me a plate of bars and I reluctantly met her sad, concerned gaze.

“You’re hurting, too,” she said gently. “I see that. I’m going to trust that you wouldn’t put Jude or yourself through this if you didn’t have a good reason. Just—just figure it out, okay? You two had something special. You need to get back to that.”

The temptation to confide in her was strong. I didn’t have anyone I could talk to about this, and my totally solitary week had taken its toll. Even my work was starting to suffer because I was overdoing it and burning out.

I resisted the temptation, though. It wouldn’t be fair to put her in the middle.

“That’s what I want,” I said finally, my throat going tight. “I’m trying, Hannah.”

She gave me a quick hug, then left. I spent a long time sitting in the wingback in the living room, staring at nothing. I felt my determination to talk to Myla before opening up to Jude waning. I could just go ahead and level with him. I could tell him about being friends

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