Good Girls Marry Doctors by Piyali Bhattacharya
Author:Piyali Bhattacharya
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Aunt Lute Books
Becoming a Reluctant Breadwinner
Swati Khurana
I. Breadwinner
I imagine that word in all capitals, outlined in yellow, against a red background – the graphics befitting a superhero. As a child, I never actually played princess or imagined myself being rescued. Take a summer afternoon in 1981, when I was fearless, in a Wonder Woman bathing suit over my six-year-old frame, lanky, knobby, and hirsute. My sister was a year old. She was toddling, squatting, tipping over. We had a pool, with a perimeter of concrete, and then a garden to the side. My grandmother was gardening and watching my sister toddle. I was on the swing set.
Then I heard a scream unlike any I had heard. It was my grandmother. My baby sister had fallen in the pool. My grandmother, who had just arrived from India with all of us a few years ago, didn’t know how to swim. I leapt off the swing set, ran past the pear tree, and jumped into the pool. I had been taking lessons, but I hadn’t learned to swim in the deep end yet. I jumped in, pulled her up, and handed her to my grandmother. My mother heard the commotion and ran outside. My sister coughed out water, but she was fine.
When I try to summon my bravery and resolve, I remember that moment of being a superhero. It’s also my creation story of my own feminism – feeling that I could summon the strength to do anything. When I hear about women being able to lift up cars for their babies, I feel as if I have first-hand experience at doing what seems physically impossible when a baby’s life is at stake.
Decades later, when my two-month paid maternity leave ended, I returned to work full-time. My husband was leaving his sales-based career and was in the process of going back to university to become a school teacher – decisions we made together. I had the flexibility to be full- or part-time and the job security to go back to work later. But we couldn’t afford that.
When I was pregnant, this plan to return to work was abstract. Soon, I realized I was the breadwinner and had transformed into neither the mother I grew up with nor the one I expected to be. I had a baby girl, a husband, and a stepdaughter, a job that was fulfilling with a degree of flexibility, the ability to provide for my family while pursuing my creative work, and yet, I felt like a failure.
I failed because I missed too many moments, including my daughter’s first steps, which were recorded on her babysitter’s cell phone and sent to me. I actually missed the video message for an hour because I was in a meeting. I missed seeing these steps in person for three days because I left the house before she woke up and came home after she fell asleep. On the fourth day of her walking, when I could take a day off, I finally saw her steps for myself.
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