Composing Amelia by Alison Strobel

Author:Alison Strobel
Language: eng
Format: mobi, epub
Tags: young marriages, musician, pastoring, Contemporary, small towns, mental illness, Bipolar, music, pregnancy, Depression
ISBN: 9781434767738
Publisher: David C Cook
Published: 2011-01-01T08:00:00+00:00

From seat 21F, Amelia watched the snowcapped Rockies slowly glide beneath her and shuddered at the sight of the snow. Marcus had warned her that a late winter storm was to move in over the next day, yet in some kind of subconscious defiance, she’d boxed her cold-weather clothes to be ground shipped and packed in her suitcase the outfits she’d been wearing for LA’s unseasonably warm spring. She hadn’t noticed until she’d boarded the plane in a tank top and skirt. Now she was freezing.

The drone of the plane and its subtle vibration lulled her toward sleep, but the cold air coupled with her thoughts kept her from nodding off. Nebraska. If she’d ever wanted proof that God didn’t care about her—not that she was looking for it—this had to be it. Why would God bless her with talent and then ship her off to a place where it would atrophy?

The plane hit a patch of turbulence and her stomach lurched. She pressed a hand to her abdomen and closed her eyes, willing the nausea to abate. She’d finally gotten over her weird flu during the last week, and the thought of being dogged by that sick feeling again made her … well … sick. At least the flight was almost halfway over. They’d be in Denver soon, where she’d connect on a smaller plane to Omaha. Knowing those small planes, though, her nausea was only just beginning.

When they landed, Amelia dragged her carry-on on its rickety wheels to the new gate where she waited an hour for her next flight. She used to love flying, and especially loved layovers. More time to read, to listen to music uninterrupted, to people-watch while indulging in snacks she normally avoided. This time she sat at the window and stared at the runway, hardly noticing the aircraft that arrived and departed right in front of her. She felt numb. This couldn’t possibly be her life. She was living someone else’s existence.

There was only a single ray of hope that she felt in all of this. The depression, as Marcus had called it, seemed to be abating. Not that she was happy-go-lucky or anything, but the depth and opacity of her sadness seemed to have lessened over the last couple days. It didn’t make sense, given she was abandoning her career and moving to a place she had no desire to be in. She figured it was just from the relief of not being separated from Marcus any longer and not having to waste her days in two jobs she hated. Regardless of the reason, she was glad. She just wished she knew whether or not to expect it to last.

She boarded the plane with the other passengers and her prayer for an introverted seat neighbor was granted. She closed her eyes and pretended to sleep, hoping to fool the rest of her body. But no, she was conscious for the entire bumpy flight, and after she debarked she sat in the gate for several long minutes while she waited for her stomach to settle.

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