When Gods Fail by Nelson Lowhim

Author:Nelson Lowhim
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: love, sex, apocalyptic, spelunking, survival, hiking, nuclear war, apocalyptic fiction, apocalyptic fiction end of the world, ravish, apocalyptic ebook
Publisher: Eiso Publishing

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The next day I awoke to see her standing over me. My eyes darted to her hands. They were empty. They grasped her thighs, then each other. Something was bothering her. Something. Of course, I thought, you've acted like a complete animal. I got up and placed my hand on her shoulder. I wanted her forgiveness. She didn't react to my touch, to my look, to my: "How are you feeling today?" I almost wanted to reenact the previous night, just to get some passion out of her. She stared at the bed we had slept in, as if it were some ghost speaking to her. What was it saying?

I pulled out some rations, divided them into two, and handed her half. She took it and ate quietly. I looked over at the bed again, and realized that it was covered with blood.

Oh.

I could smell the sweet metallic blood. It filled my nostrils and filtered down to my stomach. From there it wormed its way to my heart, and I felt sick.

This was not the way it should've happened. I should've earned her trust. But how? Was it supposed to be before or after she found out I killed her family? Don't be a fool. This was the only way. I remembered reading about ancient tribes, how volatile their societies were, wrecked with violence. When they vanquished their foes, they would murder all the men, and take the women as chattel. A way to expand the tribe, to expand enjoyment, and expand their genetic material. It had always seemed like the wrong way to live; yet here in a similar situation it seemed like the smartest route for me. There was no other way.

After I'd finished my meal, I looked at her slowly chewing her food. It would take her a while, but she had to accept reality. She had to stay here, and as far as I was concerned this was my place. I'd won it. It was my choice whether she stayed. I didn't say this as I surveyed the hut. There was plenty of floor space, but no place to eat a meal on, or to study. A sheet of metal lay on the floor. I grabbed it, scraping the packed dirt floor, and I leaned it against the wall. I piled the ammo cans into three separate but equal stacks and placed the sheet metal on them.

"This is our table," I said. "We will now eat here." She was still staring at the bed, the blood. It didn't seem right, as if she was in a shell. I walked to her and lifted her chin. I wanted some recognition. She looked up at me, not with fear, not with hate, but without a sliver of recognition.

My heart sank. I'd been a monster to her. What was I thinking? Time, she needed time.

I walked back to the new table and pulled out my map. I marked where we were, the cave, and approximately where Bill and Paul lived.

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