When Faith Gets Shaken: Second Edition by Patrick Regan & Liza Hoeksma

Author:Patrick Regan & Liza Hoeksma [Regan, Patrick & Hoeksma, Liza]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: Christian Living, Religion
ISBN: 9781800300057
Amazon: 1800300050
Publisher: Lion Hudson
Published: 2020-12-28T00:00:00+00:00

19If you’d like to hear more of Bob’s story you can check out his videos and blogs at www.bobsorge.com – “I am with you” is especially worth a watch.

Chapter 6

Running on Empty

While patients are having limb reconstruction surgery it is suggested that they meet regularly with a therapist, as doctors recognize that what happens to us physically affects us emotionally. My therapist warned me that when patients have the frame removed they tend to think that they’re fine and that everything will be a whole lot better, while in reality they are still in the recovery process. I nodded my head in response, understanding what she was saying but thinking that I couldn’t wait to get the frame off and get back to normal life. As soon as I was free of the contraption, I threw myself head first into all the things I’d been missing out on. I picked up the kids, ran around with them, and sat playing with them on the floor. I could finally mow the grass that I’d been staring at from the sofa for so long. I waited for the euphoria to kick in: I had my life back! I could walk, I could get up off the sofa myself, I could get back to work! After a few days I noticed that I wasn’t feeling that happy at all. My immediate response was to get angry with myself, thinking, “What’s wrong with me? I’ve got the freedom I’ve been longing for and I should be jumping for joy.” The words of the therapist came back to me: whereas I was recovering physically, I wasn’t coping mentally or emotionally. Things I used to be able to do with my eyes shut were now a struggle. I led a prayer meeting at XLP, and part way through telling a story I’ve told many times before, I realized I had completely forgotten how the story ended. I looked out at eighty expectant faces and had no idea where I was going. Thankfully my blagging skills hadn’t deserted me and I waffled on for a few minutes until my brain kicked back into gear. My memory seemed to be unreliable in other situations too. I’d find myself irritated because I didn’t know all the things that were going on at XLP and then the team would say, “Remember, we spoke about this a few weeks ago?” Even with a prompt I had no recollection of the conversation.

About a week after the frame came off my parents and sister came up to celebrate my birthday, and we’d planned a meal out together in the evening. One of my wounds had started to look infected and I showed it to my mum and sister, who are both nurses. They were worried and wanted me to go to A&E, but I really didn’t want to go back to hospital again and ruin our plans. We rang the ward and they told me to come straight in. They thought there might have been some gauze left in the wound, so packed it up to try to draw anything out.

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