Wasteland by Terry Tyler

Author:Terry Tyler [Tyler, Terry]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: UNKNOWN
Published: 2020-04-21T22:00:00+00:00

Lilyn doesn't want me to go.

"I don't want you to be disappointed," she says, over breakfast. "He'll be in a Hope somewhere, under a different name."

"She's gotta try," says Ace, taking a sip of his tea.

"I have. There's no harm in looking. And we're going as far as Cumbria, anyway, because Ace wants to visit a friend up there."

Lilyn smooths her hand over her bump. "I just don't want you to go, now I've found you." Her smile is so pretty. "I never dreamt I'd ever see you again, not in a million years."

My eyes tear up again. "I'll come back." I glance at Ace. "Can we?"

"Sure." He stands up. "Okay if I go down and have a look at these boats before we go?"

"Yes―yes, Dan's down there already." We look out of the window. "That's Jude, who he's talking to."

I watch him walking towards the jetty, and am hit with the realisation that I haven't got a clue what comes next. If I don't follow Plan A―return to MC12―what do I do with my life? Live in Fennington and become as Sloane and Dior, waiting in dark houses for people like me to turn up? Or do I come back here, smoke fish, grow vegetables and worry about the sea coming through my front door? Concentrate on being Auntie Rae to my niece or nephew? I can't imagine not getting up and going to work every morning. Not having a purpose.

Perhaps working for Link will be that purpose. A better one.

I imagine going back, and forgetting all I've heard. Nash and I will probably break up, if we haven't already. I'll carry on being a good Balance counsellor and maybe end up doing a job like Ginevra's. I'll have 'fun' during my twenties, then meet some other guy and get married. Have my one child, unless the currently faceless father has an A- or B-grade job, in which case I may have two or even three. My family will become my purpose, along with my job. We'll have a good life, constantly stimulated, amused and entertained by all that is available in MC12, while we save up for holidays in the permitted countries. When we're seventy, husband and I will toddle along to our little flat in the Senior Village, and settle into our twilight years. That's my life, all mapped out, give or take a few variations.

Before, I would have been happy with that. It was all I expected. Now, though, it just seems like one big virtual reality.

Sod it. I can't think about next week right now, let alone the next ten or twenty years. I've found my sister, and I'm going to do everything I can to find my brother, too. That's enough for now.

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