Tethered by Pippa Jay

Author:Pippa Jay
Language: eng
Format: mobi, epub
Tags: Cyber Romance
Publisher: Breathless Press
Published: 2014-04-21T23:00:00+00:00

Chapter Seven

She paced the room, hugging herself, forcing down the shakes. Swallowing the knot in her throat that threatened to choke her. What had she expected? In all honesty? She bit down on the pathetic whimper clamoring to escape. This was not how Su behaved. She shouldn’t have kissed him. It was a huge error, and she had only herself to blame for the agony raging through her now, the sense of rejection. Why would Zander have any feelings for her? Of course he would mistake her for Mirsee, whom she duplicated in almost every way. He still loved Mirsee, still grieved for her. And Tyree was an Inc-Su assassin, who killed with sex, not the innocent but flawed Su he had loved and been bonded to. Why would he want her?

She flopped onto the bed and rocked herself. Just for a moment, she had felt something different. Not the need for sex and auric energy, though the desire had been there. This had been warmth laced with affection. She had made a choice freely for once, without any orders to kill, without the terrible need for Communion. She had gone to Zander, wanting him for himself. Simply to be a part of him for those few moments of bliss. To have him touch her, kiss her. Hold her. She remembered how he’d held her after she’d been poisoned. The concern she’d felt from him. How he’d stayed afterward while she slept, worried for her.

But of course his only concern was to complete the treaty. He didn’t really care about her. Not as a person. Not as a woman. Just as the only way to keep the peace with the Tier-vane rather than going to war. That was the extent of her value. She was a fool to believe otherwise.

She lay down and curled up into a tight knot. Longed for Refuge and the feel of her kin. Longed even for Communion with one of her kind, instead of the hollow, aching void in her chest. The terrible gnawing loneliness. Was that why she had sought Zander out? Driven there simply by her need for companionship? Or did she feel more? Was this what it felt like to be in love?

If so, she couldn’t understand why anyone would permit it. At that moment she would rather be Dissipated.

***

The smell of capprey woke her. She lay curled in bed and sucked in the scent as though she’d been starved of the caffeine-rich brew for a year. She’d spent a restless night listening for Zander, torn between wanting him to come to her and terror that he would. What would he say? What could she say after last night? Should she apologize? Pretend it had never happened? Her thoughts ran rampant. Not even the Rules of Decorum covered this. Certainly nothing in the Inc-Su community of Refuge.

A soft knock sounded on her door. Her stomach writhed. She couldn’t face Zander. Not yet.

“My lady?”

Visaya. A strange mix of emotions roiled through her. Anger

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