My Heart Is Not Blind by Michael Nye

Author:Michael Nye
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Trinity University Press
Published: 2018-03-11T16:00:00+00:00

KAY (SILK) LITTLEJOHN

I am truly a God-fearing woman. My faith is strong. I’m a community activist and former president of the NAACP. My family calls me Silk. I have two children, three grandsons, a loving superwoman of a mother, five amazing brothers, and a host of family and friends that love me dearly.

When I was born, my parents were coming from Connecticut to Texas. My father got mad and pushed my mother to the ground and hit her. I was born into this world from domestic abuse. My mother was seven months pregnant and started having labor pains. My father saw a house on a dirt road with a light on. He pulled up, knocked on the door, and said, “My wife is in labor. I have three little boys. Can you help us?” My dad being from New York understood that there were racists in the South. The man said, “You can’t come in but we have a barn out back. You can take her back there.” So my father took my mother to the barn. I was born early, two pounds, and they put me in an old pigs’ incubator to keep me warm. My first bed was my grandfather’s boot box. I went from a boot box, to a dresser drawer, to a bassinette, to a baby bed, and into the arms of my mother and grandmother.

I’m the only girl of seven boys. I felt like I was always going to be a fixer. I helped my mom with things around the home. I grew up with boys who were angry and frustrated, because their dad had left them. And so I was a fixer. When I met someone, I didn’t know the true meaning of love with a companion. I knew love with a family member, but loving a companion is totally different. I stayed with him because I couldn’t fix myself. I couldn’t fix my emotions. I couldn’t fix the reason why I was allowing someone to abuse me. I couldn’t fix the shame and embarrassment. So I stayed. I didn’t know then that being a fixer was the most selfish thing I could do. People abuse when they don’t have control. People abuse because they don’t want to be alone. They instill fear in someone else, and that gives them power.

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