It's All About Him: Finding the Love of My Life by Denise Jackson
Author:Denise Jackson [Jackson, Denise]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: Autobiography, Biography, Entertainment & Performing Arts, Music, Non-Fiction, Personal Memoirs
ISBN: 9781418531133
Google: _X3d0lYsTO0C
Publisher: Thomas Nelson
Published: 2007-07-28T23:00:00+00:00
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EVEN AS MY HEART WAS LIKE A BIG BRUISE INSIDE OF ME BECAUSE OF ALANâS LEAVING, I WAS BEGINNING TO HEAR THE CHORDS OF A NEW SONG, A SONG IâD NEVER HEARD BEFORE, A SWEET WHISPER THAT WAS TELLING ME ALL WOULD BE WELL.
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Still, though, at that point it was just a whisper.
A Bigger Prayer
One day after Sunday school was over, I sought out the teacher. Robert Wolgemuth was in the publishing industry, a compassionate man with a deep knowledge of the Scriptures and a mellow, soothing voice. His beautiful wife, Bobbie, bubbled with the love of God. We found a quiet corner in the back of the big room, and I told them exactly what my problem was . . . or so I thought.
âIâm Alan Jacksonâs wife,â I began. âWeâre separated. Could you pray with me that he would come back?â
The Wolgemuths werenât part of the country music world, and had to ask someone later who Alan Jackson was, but they put their arms around me. Bobbieâs expressive face was full of compassion, and Robert prayed for Godâs love to flow over me.
Over the next few weeks, Bobbie would seek me out at Sunday school.
âHow are you doing?â she would ask, and I knew she really cared.
âPlease keep praying,â Iâd say. âPray that Alan will come back!â
By this point Bobbie felt comfortable enough with me to be very straightforward.
âDenise,â she said,âwe love you and we are so for you. But we need to pray a different prayer. A bigger prayer. We need to pray not that Alan will come back, but that you will be the woman God is calling you to be. Of course we want Alan to come back. But thatâs secondary. The first thing right now is that you seek God with all your heart. My prayer will be that God will show you what incredible love He has for you.â
I knew that Bobbie was right, and just about half of me was willing to pray that prayer. The other half of me just wanted Alan back. Period.
But I found out a great thing about God. He doesnât require that we become completely willing. He doesnât wait until our faith or our motives are absolutely pure and perfect. If He did, Heâd wait forever, and while He has the time to do so, we donât. He took my small surrenders, my little steps of willingness, and began to do little miracles with them.
Itâs like the story of the boy in the New Testament who suffered from epilepsy.2 His father brought him to Jesus. By this point the boy was probably a young man; the father had gone through many long years of heartbreak and frustration.
Convulsing, the boy foamed at the mouth and rolled on the ground, his arms flailing.
âHow long has he been like this?â Jesus asked the father.
âFrom childhood,â said the father. âBut if you can do anything, take pity on us and help us.â
â âIf you canâ?â Jesus repeated. âEverything is possible for him who believes.
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