Hopelessly Perfect by S E Rose

Hopelessly Perfect by S E Rose

Author:S E Rose [Rose, S E]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2020-07-27T18:30:00+00:00


Chapter Nineteen

I can’t believe Ash only has one more day at the hospital. I’m nervous for him to come to my house. I want him to be happy, and I know he’s been through a lot. My foster parent training seems a million years ago, even though last week I downloaded a million parenting books and I’ve been reading them twenty-four-seven trying to catch up on new techniques. I go over everything I’ve bought for Ash. I think I have it all.

I keep wondering if I can do this. And I also keep wondering if I can keep going down this road with Brix. This past week has been amazing! But . . . I keep doubting myself, keep doubting why Brix would want to be with me and wondering whether I’m cut out for a relationship. My mind is all over the place. Normally, I’m totally in control of everything, including my feelings, and now . . . well, I feel completely out of control and I don’t like that. Di would say to go back to my therapist and work my head out, and she’s probably right. I’m a hot mess. I am also unsure of what I want, which is not ideal at this moment when I just started seeing a new guy and am bringing home a child to live at my house. To say I’m freaked out is the understatement of the century. Maybe I need some time just to focus on Ash and then I can try the relationship thing with Brix?

I manage to avoid Brix for most of the day, as I let Ash work on some educational games on the tablet while I get some work done. I’ve been able to schedule some family leave to help him adjust. I don’t like taking more time off, but in this case, I know Ash will need my undivided attention for a few weeks. Larry and his wife adopted two of their three kids from foster care, so he was more than understanding about me taking off more time. I really do need to buy that man a gift. He’s been amazing lately. And, I begrudgingly admit, I did need some time off. I may or may not be able to admit that to him.

When I exit the bathroom, I see Brix. There’s no more avoiding him. He comes over and kisses me. I look around, but no one is in the hallway to see us.

“Hey, you OK?” he asks me.

“I’m fine,” I lie. “Just lots going on with work before I take off.”

“Oh, how about I come over tomorrow night once you get Ash settled in?”

“Uh, yeah, let’s talk about details tomorrow,” I say because I’m a big chicken and can’t handle a grown-up discussion at the moment about my feelings and how I need to step back and think about them for a few days.

The sounds of the ‘Code Blue’ ring out in the hallway, and Brix takes off sprinting. I see him run into a room, followed by a nurse with a crash cart.



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