Hopelessly Perfect by S E Rose
Author:S E Rose [Rose, S E]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2020-07-27T18:30:00+00:00
Chapter Nineteen
I canât believe Ash only has one more day at the hospital. Iâm nervous for him to come to my house. I want him to be happy, and I know heâs been through a lot. My foster parent training seems a million years ago, even though last week I downloaded a million parenting books and Iâve been reading them twenty-four-seven trying to catch up on new techniques. I go over everything Iâve bought for Ash. I think I have it all.
I keep wondering if I can do this. And I also keep wondering if I can keep going down this road with Brix. This past week has been amazing! But . . . I keep doubting myself, keep doubting why Brix would want to be with me and wondering whether Iâm cut out for a relationship. My mind is all over the place. Normally, Iâm totally in control of everything, including my feelings, and now . . . well, I feel completely out of control and I donât like that. Di would say to go back to my therapist and work my head out, and sheâs probably right. Iâm a hot mess. I am also unsure of what I want, which is not ideal at this moment when I just started seeing a new guy and am bringing home a child to live at my house. To say Iâm freaked out is the understatement of the century. Maybe I need some time just to focus on Ash and then I can try the relationship thing with Brix?
I manage to avoid Brix for most of the day, as I let Ash work on some educational games on the tablet while I get some work done. Iâve been able to schedule some family leave to help him adjust. I donât like taking more time off, but in this case, I know Ash will need my undivided attention for a few weeks. Larry and his wife adopted two of their three kids from foster care, so he was more than understanding about me taking off more time. I really do need to buy that man a gift. Heâs been amazing lately. And, I begrudgingly admit, I did need some time off. I may or may not be able to admit that to him.
When I exit the bathroom, I see Brix. Thereâs no more avoiding him. He comes over and kisses me. I look around, but no one is in the hallway to see us.
âHey, you OK?â he asks me.
âIâm fine,â I lie. âJust lots going on with work before I take off.â
âOh, how about I come over tomorrow night once you get Ash settled in?â
âUh, yeah, letâs talk about details tomorrow,â I say because Iâm a big chicken and canât handle a grown-up discussion at the moment about my feelings and how I need to step back and think about them for a few days.
The sounds of the âCode Blueâ ring out in the hallway, and Brix takes off sprinting. I see him run into a room, followed by a nurse with a crash cart.
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