Born into It by Jay Baruchel

Author:Jay Baruchel
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: HarperCollins Canada
Published: 2018-09-11T16:00:00+00:00

TWO

Sean sighed and felt a burn at the back of his throat. He’d taken a Pepcid fifteen minutes before and was still waiting for it to kick in. He burped a weird, almost gasless non-burp and thought, Fuck. Tonight the burn was especially bad. He’d silenced the better angels of his nature about seven hours ago, when he agreed to meet up with Corey at Momesso for supper before work. Sean knew full well that he wasn’t supposed to be eating anything remotely acidic, and that definitely included meatball subs with chili peppers and beer. But Sean had been in a real “fuck it” state of mind for the past three weeks, and acid reflux prevention just wasn’t a priority.

Sean had only really had two priorities during that time, the first of which was making sure that he got to work on time. He was committed to not fucking that up. He’d tried his best to keep up appearances, and keep his personal life in his personal life, but it was all in vain, as everyone at work seemed to know what was up. Sean was desperate to prove that he was fine, even though it was obvious to himself and everyone else that he probably wasn’t. Still, he tried, and it took everything in him. Which was fine, because he could use the distraction. He needed the distraction. In fact, distracting himself was the ideological fulcrum of the other of Sean’s two priorities as of late: trying his level best not to think about her.

Which seemed basically impossible, save for brief moments of extreme inebriation or obligatory focus on things like work or heartburn. It had been a shitty, and long, three weeks. He’d been dumped before, and dumped others himself, but this one got to him in a massive way, and he’d spent the bulk of the past three weeks meditating on why.

It was because he’d seen it coming and still got the shit kicked out him anyway. That’s what he settled on. There had been problems like a motherfucker; they both knew it. Neither of them had been actually happy in a long time. Comfortable, maybe. But not happy. He’d thought about ending it himself many times, and was far more stung and blindsided than he was expecting when she ultimately bailed. And now here he was, sad and lonely and resentful and cynical. He missed her, and he was mad at her for leaving after he’d suffered all her shit, but really he was just bitter that she’d beaten him to it. He was winded, and was seeing the artifice in everything.

Which made his job legitimately difficult. If he’d been a cubicle dude or sold cellphones or worked in manual labour, he’d have been able to just keep his head down and mush forward from a starting point of having zero emotional connection to his work whatsoever. But Sean didn’t work in any of those jobs. No, if anything, his was the very business of getting

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