A Beautiful Star (Beautiful Series, Book 5) by Lilliana Anderson

Author:Lilliana Anderson [Anderson, Lilliana]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2014-11-15T05:00:00+00:00

Chapter 17

When I wake the next morning, my head aches. I’m not sure if it’s from the wine, or just the memories of the night before–and the confusion that goes with them. I can’t believe I left Brad, the beautiful, caring, considerate Brad, who has done nothing but be good to me, for a dry humping session with Jonathan, the guy who has been nothing but a disruption to my life since the moment I met him. But there’s something there with Jonathan. Something I don’t have with Brad and as much as I’m scared to explore it, I can’t seem to stop myself.

If I make a list of the pro and cons between each man, Brad wins. Hands down, no questions asked. And logically, I agree, I really do think that Brad is a wonderful guy and I enjoy spending time with him but…we’re just lacking that special something I have with Jonathan. We’re lacking that spark. That unexplainable phenomenon that makes bad decisions seem like good decisions because you just can’t help the way you feel.

My heart doesn’t give a fuck about a pros and cons list. My heart just cares about the man who makes it beat a little faster and feel a little lighter. It doesn’t care that the man could break it into a million pieces and turn my life into a paparazzi shit-storm like he did for Lisa. It simply cares about the primal, soul searing connection that I only feel with one man, and I know that if I don’t allow myself to explore it, then I’ll spend the rest of my life regretting it.

Being Saturday, I put on a pair of yoga pants, and a tank top and head out to the back garden with my phone, my coffee and some toast. I have a phone call to make and an apology to give, and the thought of doing it causes my stomach to clench in a way that makes it impossible to eat, so I end up throwing my toast to the birds, as I run through a few different scenarios of this conversation through my mind in preparation.

Each and every one of them has me ending up looking like a bitch, so in the end I just pick up my phone and dial Brad’s number then wait with my heart pounding in my chest.

“I think I owe you an apology,” I say the moment he answers the phone. “I shouldn’t have run off the way I did.”

“It’s OK. I was just worried I did something wrong, or if I pushed you too far too fast. That was never my intention at all.”

“I know it wasn’t, and you didn’t do a thing wrong. It was all me. I’m just really confused about things at the moment.”

“Does that actor guy I keep seeing you photographed with have anything to do with it?” he asks.

I pull at my lip with my teeth. I don’t particularly want to answer, but I do. I owe him that much.

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