Awakening Mercy by Angela Benson

Author:Angela Benson
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Angela Benson
Published: 2011-11-10T00:00:00+00:00

Chapter 11

"Nate," CeCe whispered against his mouth, "we have to stop."

"I know." Nate pressed his mouth against hers again.

CeCe felt herself melt against him. Kissing him this way felt so right, but she knew they had to stop. Though she knew that the love she and Nate shared was different from what she had shared with Eric, she knew that both emotions could lead to disaster. She pulled herself out of Nate's arms and settled back against the swing, her eyes closed.

"I'm sorry," Nate said, his voice warm and comforting. "I mean, I'm sorry for making you uncomfortable but not sorry for kissing you." He chuckled softly. "I've wanted to do it for a very long time, but I promise you, CeCe, it won't go any further. I don't expect it to go any further."

CeCe nodded, but she didn't open her eyes. "I know, Nate. I trust you." But she wondered if she could trust herself. Nate had proven he could control his passions, for he'd lived a celibate lifestyle for four years. She knew she could control hers as well, but the intensity of her feelings for this man she had come to love surprised her. Well, CeCe, she said to herself, you wondered how it would feel to kiss Nate's lips, and now you know. Maybe you would have been better off not knowing.

"Come on," Nate teased. "Tell me what's going on behind those eyelids. I don't like it when you think so much. It usually means you're worrying unnecessarily."

She opened her eyes, but she still didn't look at him. "You have nothing to be sorry about, Nate. I was as willing as you were. I should apologize to you. I didn't mean to lead you on."

Nate placed his index finger on her chin and turned her face to him. "What are you talking about? You didn't lead me on. Now tell me what's on your mind."

CeCe turned her face away from the tenderness and acceptance in his eyes. What did he really know about her, anyway? How could he love her when he didn't know her? He didn't know the awful things she'd done and the price she still had to pay because of them. Would he still love her if he knew?

"I'm not him," he said, when she didn't speak.

CeCe's head jerked back in his direction.

"I'm not Eric," he repeated. "I want to marry you, CeCe, and spend the rest of my life with you. And I want everything to be right between us. That means waiting until we've said our vows before sharing any intimacies beyond the kisses we've shared. I don't want us to start our lives together with guilt or shame over sex. Our marriage is going to be a celebration of the love God has given us. We're not going to tarnish it. Neither one of us wants that." He grinned. "Even if it means we never sit on this porch alone again."

CeCe smiled, feeling relaxed because of his obvious desire to comfort her.

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