Womb by Leah Hazard
Author:Leah Hazard
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: HarperCollins
Published: 2022-12-08T00:00:00+00:00
Health
IN SICKNESS AND WELLNESS
I am always begging my body not to be so broken
but my body just laughs because it knows who started
this war.
âFORTESA LATIFI, âCHRONIC ILLNESSâ
I am suspended six feet in midair, naked from the waist down with my legs spread and stirruped. The chair I am in has, according to the nurse who is now frantically punching buttons on a control panel, been âplaying upâ all week, and now it is on its absolute worst, most mischievous behavior. From my vantage point up here near the ceiling tiles, I can just about see the dark roots coming through at the top of the nurseâs peroxide-blond head. I can see a cart with its drawers jammed full of cellophane packs: sterile speculums, swabs, needles, and syringes, all of the tools that may be needed to probe the secret pockets of my body. I can see the doctor, too, as she squirts a packet of lube onto the ultrasound wand that will soon be inside me; she glances up to my legs dangling above her, then at the increasingly apologetic nurse, her face slack with infinite boredom as her gloved hand rubs the lube up and down the wand. I watch it all from my perch up here in the air. I try to remember where Iâve seen the doctorâs expression before, and then it comes to meâitâs the weary resignation of the sex workers in Amsterdamâs red-light district, pacing their windows in bikinis and pleather hot pants. This is another day in the slip and suck of womenâs bodies, and weâre all just living in it, trying to do our best.
I crack a joke about being left high and dry; I am gracious; I try to defuse the situation, although I am the one with the least reason to apologize. In the other part of my lifeâthe part where I am the one standing between other womenâs legs, cheering them on, willing their bodies to perform in the best, healthiest, most joyous way possibleâI tell women not to keep saying sorry. You are wonderful, I say. You are beautiful and strong. Donât apologize for your body. But today, my flawed body has brought us togetherâthe nurse, the doctor, and Iâmy body that labors every month to deliver those age-old twins, pain and bleedingâand I am saying sorry for my body, sorry for the chair, sorry you have to do this and see me and touch me and give a name and a cure to my problems, sorry, sorry.
There is no cure, though, the doctor tells me twenty minutes later in her office, once I have been rescued from my perch and positioned and probed in another room with a better, more obedient chair. She taps her pen against the computer screen on her desk.
âThis is an ultrasound image of your womb,â she says, tapping an area that looks like itâs been blasted by a fine spray of grayscale frost, âand this part of your uterus is calcified.â
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