The Only Lesson by Bill McKenna

Author:Bill McKenna [McKenna, Bill]
Language: eng
Format: mobi
ISBN: 9781452535036
Publisher: BalboaPress
Published: 2011-06-09T04:00:00+00:00

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“I came to the realization that these possessions seen as the source of all happiness were quickly turned into the source of pain.”

Chapter 12: Letting Go

Before I began forgiving, fear disguised as anger played a major role in my life. Everyone around me knew it, even though I thought it was my little secret. I would flare up at this or that, thinking if I can get past this incident, or get that person out of my life, everything will be fine. After I started forgiving, I was overwhelmed with the joy and peace I felt. I did not even notice that I was no longer getting angry. No one was pushing my buttons. No one was backhanding me.

People have noticed the change in me. A longtime friend of mine spent a weekend on the yacht. In between fun on the water we started talking about fear, forgiveness, anger, irritations and a connection to the Divine. We went through a few meditations I had learned about releasing fear and forgiving the people on the forefront of your mind. He said the experience made him feel lighter, happier and free. After the weekend, he called to say that our work helped him to realize the countless opportunities he has to get angry every day, and when the guy in the car next to him cut him off, he feels justified in that anger. He also saw that this angry friend he had known since he was 18 years old, yours truly, did not seem to get angry very much anymore. He had called to ask if what he was seeing in me was really true, and how could that be?

I answered him that I now rarely get angry, and when I do, what used to take weeks to get over is now through in a matter of minutes or even seconds, without much effort. It was a timely question because I had experienced a great example. A new revelation had occurred to me just before his weekend visit.

This was the first summer I had returned to Avalon since I began forgiving myself and others. Moving the yacht to Catalina for the summer is a big undertaking so the day the move is complete is a pretty big deal. After my wife and I got our boat’s mooring, we went to shore for dinner at my favorite Mexican restaurant. The following day a pilot was to deliver our helicopter, which would streamline transportation to the mainland when necessary, the final icing on the cake for enjoying the entire summer on the island. It was truly a dream come true. I felt so happy as the waiter set down my margarita. I raised it up to toast my bride, “we made it, to the start of summer!” Clink. No sooner than the very first drip of tangy flavor touched my lips then my wife piped up, “You know we are not staying here if I get pregnant.” Immediately I got upset, very upset. My mind raced.

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