Still Lolo by Lauren Scruggs & Scruggs Family

Author:Lauren Scruggs & Scruggs Family
Language: eng
Format: epub, mobi
Tags: BIOGRAPHY & AUTOBIOGRAPHY / Religious, RELIGION / Christian Life / Inspirational, DESIGN / Fashion
Publisher: Tyndale House Publishers, Inc.
Published: 2012-11-14T16:00:00+00:00

CHAPTER 16

Reconciled

Lauren

They never did find out what was wrong with me.

My internal bleeding stopped as suddenly as it had started. My red blood cell count began to bounce back to normal. To this day, I’ve never experienced anything like that again, and whatever went wrong with me that summer in New York remains a mystery.

In the fall of 2009, I started back at Dallas Baptist University. It felt good to be back among a community of close friends who knew me and supported me. I began reading my Bible more and walking closer with God. I paid more attention to my physical needs too. I’d always eaten healthfully, but I renewed my commitment to eat clean. I began to experiment with various foods, paying attention to how they affected my body’s energy levels. I cut out most sugar, gluten, and red meat, and ate almost solely fresh vegetables, fruits, and lean protein. Avocado made a good substitute for butter, Greek yogurt for sour cream, and stevia for sugar. My favorite foods became crunchy kale salads, grilled sweet potatoes, and blackened, lightly-oiled Brussels sprouts.

That September I flew to New York to cover Fashion Week again. This time I didn’t sense the Lord telling me not to go to the city. I didn’t see anybody there I shouldn’t be seeing. I just attended the shows, then went to coffee shops by myself to write. I began thinking ahead to the next summer and lined up several interviews to explore more internships. The good people at Teen Vogue talked with me, as did the folks at People StyleWatch magazine. But nothing seemed quite right. By the time I flew home, I had no idea what to do except continue on with the next steps at school.

In mid-October I was at the gym one day when I received a text from Brooks. It was completely unexpected. I hadn’t heard a word from him since the text he sent right after I got sick. Then he followed up with a phone call and explained how he had assumed I’d call him when I felt better. At first I sensed he was trying to pin his insensitivity back on me, but the more he kept talking, the more I fell under his spell again. I kept picturing all the fun moments we’d had together. When he called me again later that evening, his voice sounded so comforting. He was back in Texas for a while, he explained. Did I want to come over for dinner?

I knew I shouldn’t. I knew he was nothing but bad news.

But I went.

Brooks cooked dinner for me. I was impressed. We drove over to Blockbuster and rented three movies to watch back at his place. I swear I had every intention of just watching the movies and talking, but ten minutes into the first movie we were making out. Again, his hands strayed to places they shouldn’t have. Again, he was telling me how beautiful I was, how special, how much he’d missed me.

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