Nic's Devotion: An Endless Series: Book One

Author:Sara Hess [Hess, Sara]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2015-05-06T04:00:00+00:00

Chapter Twenty-five

Carrie

I sat in the patio swing rocking slightly and rubbing my fingers through the fur of the Border collie lying in my lap. The action brought me some measure of calm and she really liked it when I massaged around her ears. Suddenly, the dog lifted her head in vigilance.

“You just made a friend for life.” Dr. Mathew’s said walking toward me. She was alone and my heart constricted in dread, going cold. Nic knew the whole story and now he didn’t want anything to do with me anymore, just like everyone else.

“Carrie, honey, don’t look like that.” Dr. Mathew’s sat down next to me and pulled me in for another hug. “I left Nic inside; he just needs a little time to ruminate on everything I told him.”

Her words brought me no reassurance. Right now he was in the house probably wondering how fast he could get away from me. My eyes and throat burned as misery sought to rip me open, but I couldn’t deny the bud of hope that longed for just a little bit of water to flourish.

Dr. Mathew’s gave my shoulder a squeeze. “Everything will be okay.”

“I don’t think it will actually.” I said despondently. “Even if Nic doesn’t run for the hills I think I might need to go back to the hospital.”

She looked at me in surprise. “Why would you say that?”

“In the last month I’ve had more episodes than I’ve had in the last year, and…I had such a severe one yesterday that I passed out. I haven’t passed out since leaving the hospital. What if I’m getting bad again? I can’t be passing out everywhere.” The idea of that was horrendous. What if I’d done that in the middle of a classroom of students?

Dr. Mathew’s expression turned contemplative. “What caused you to pass out?”

I explained to her about what the girl had done last night.

She shook her head looking angry. “Do you remember what happened leading up to your other episodes?”

Again, I explained to her about when Nic had asked about my father, and then how I’d freaked out when Nic had punched that guy from the party.

“I think that Nic’s presence in your life have brought your memory and emotions closer to the surface. For years you’ve suppressed them, kept them tightly controlled, but now as a result of your feelings for him they’ve been unchained. This is going to cause you to experience things more deeply than what you’re accustomed to and that is probably why your episodes have increased. Every one of them was in the presence of Nic so I would have to conclude that he is definitely the catalyst.”

“So it will be good if he goes away?” I knew it had been too good to be true. Even if Nic had wanted to stay I couldn’t keep him because I would just continue having episodes in his presence. He brought me the most happiness I’d ever known but could also bring me the worst pain and misery.

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