Firsts by Brooks Anna & Brooks Anna

Author:Brooks, Anna & Brooks, Anna
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: A First in Series Collection
Publisher: Anna Brooks
Published: 2019-04-30T16:00:00+00:00

Chapter 13

Smith

She continues speaking, and I can barely comprehend what she’s saying through the dark fog surrounding me. “I was on my stomach the whole time, so there was only one part of my body that he abused. If Jay hadn’t come in my room, though…” Her shoulders shrug, and through my haze, I see her embarrassment.

“I’ll be… Just hold on a sec.” Instead of using the bathroom attached to my room, I jog downstairs and close the door. My shaky hands rest on the countertop, and I take a few deep breaths to calm myself down. As I’m washing my hands, visions of what she just told me rip through my skin and settle deep in my gut, forcing me to face the reality of what she endured. My feet slip on the rug as I lunge for the toilet and dry heave into it. Good thing I haven’t eaten yet today.

I never thought... not that it makes it better, but I didn’t... fuck. If anything, it makes it worse. I can’t stop picturing her pressed down with some motherfucker—shit. I heave again and spit into the bowl.

When I finally compose myself enough to go back to her, she’s not in bed. I grab my cell and throw on a pair of shorts and a tee since I’m in here. The pipes screech and I go back in the hall and test the knob on the bathroom door. Locked. I knock, but she doesn’t answer.

“Mellie, sunshine, open up.” I can barely hear anything over the water, so when the door does open, I’m surprised. “I had no idea. I’m sorry, I just needed a minute. The thought of it alone... then knowing. Shit, I can’t stomach that you—” I just stop talking, because the more I do, the more tears well in her eyes.

“Yeah, well, I’m trying to move on, and it’s probably good that you know now, so you’re not disappointed when you find out there are certain things I will never ever do.”

I step back, a little pissed off that she thinks so low of me that I’d be disappointed in her for that.

Before I can say anything, she continues. “I understand it’s a turn off, and you probably—”

“I want you to shut up and listen to what I’m about to say.” Enough of this shit.

Her mouth snaps shut; she swallows loudly and then presses her lips together.

“There ain’t a damn thing, nothing,”—I emphasize. She really needs to hear me on this—“that you could tell me that would change the way I feel about you. Do you get me? I fell for you the moment I saw you... and I’ve never had that kind of reaction to anyone in my life. And getting to know you, seeing you smile and laugh, that is what I care about. Everything else is trivial, Mellie. But this doubt you seem to have about me needs to end.”

“I’m sorry,” she whispers.

“I don’t want you to apologize. I only want you to trust me.

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