Drowning is Fine by Darren Allen
Author:Darren Allen [Allen, Darren]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Expressive Egg
Published: 2021-06-10T11:04:39+00:00
Knocked Conscious
âWednesday today, soon be end of week, and thatâll be February finished.â Derek is in the habit of dispensing of time in this way, âwinter almost over, then it will be summer, another year gone, soon be dead,â he says, immobile in his chair like a sack of potatoes.
Sunday afternoon, boiled cabbage, Songs of Praise, damp outside, and darkâthe uniform grey non-thing of the South London skyâchipped paint on the bathroom plumbing, steam, sour bodily odours, slightly faecal, overcoated with disinfectant, but never quite completely. Such is The Meadows in Derekâs little room, overlooking the cold car-park and the service alley to the Chinese, and a plume of smoke rising from a burning box of Meccano.
âThat drama therapist just been in with her bloody cards. Therapists, teachers, doctors, priests, Iâve had enough of âem,â he says wearily, âThey grow up in a professional house, go to a professional school, then to a professional university, then they get a nice professional job, and they donât know a bloody thing about life, not a thingâcowards they are, mostly.â
Derek leans forward and whispers, âyou got any tobacco son?â
âSorry, no.â
He shrugs and settles back. âIn the mine the vicar, they brought him down once, he wanted to see it all, he stepped off cage like, got to the mothergate, âaye,â he said âthas enough.â They said âyou havenât seen the men working.â He said âdonât want toâ. He was frightened. Theyâre all frightened, priests, and then they go around telling us how tâ live! And itâs not like you can just forget about âem, you need a priest, I mean a professional, for everything, or at least every bit of bloody paper. Didnât use to be like that.â
I can hardly imagine a world without professionals. It seems so⦠unprofessional.
âAnyroad, canât see it lasting much longer.â
âWhat dâya mean?â
âI mean, I think, it seems to me that everything is just⦠crumbling. Thereâs new stuff all the time, but itâsâitâs paper-thin, underneath everything is crumbling.â
Like a loaf in the rain.
ââThereâll be another war before long,â he says, âand itâll all come crashing down!â
âYou think so?â
âI do. All rich countries trying to keep the poor ones outâthere enât wall high enough.â
âYouâve been in trouble though, had hard times, seen death.â
âDeath? Oh yeah. We was on face one night and we were building the pack for the roof. Group working on one side, we were on tâother. And I could just seeâI thought, âthat bastardâs sitting downâ Their lights were pointing down. I said âeee!ââabout thirteen foot from us. Went round, they were flattened. Gone. Four men; gone. Happened all the time. Wivesâd never let us go to work on an argument. Worked well though, that did.â
We sit in silence, listening to the pipes. I feel the tension of freedom. Magda will be along soon, poking her long nose into my tea break. She has the hyper-observant mania of the lower manager, constantly on the lookout for a calorie of wasted workforce energy.
Yes, my tide of defiance washed away, revealing the black, flinty fact of penury.
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