Black Sabbath's Master of Reality by John Darnielle
Author:John Darnielle [Darnielle, John]
Language: eng
Format: azw3
Tags: Epistolary, Mental Illness, Music, Historical, Fiction
ISBN: 9780826428998
Publisher: Bloomsbury
Published: 2008-04-14T23:00:00+00:00
October 3, 1995
I think about it every day whether I want to or not, no matter what kind of day Iâm having. On a good day, when I remember spending two years locked up getting told what I should and shouldnât think, I donât blame anybody. For anything. My parents didnât know how to deal with an angry teenager, and the people in the hospitals didnât really know, either: they just tried to act like they did, for money maybe, or perhaps because they really believed it. How they could believe that? I donât know, because you donât have to look around those places for long to realize that theyâre so fat with sadness itâs a wonder the walls donât crack.
Which is how I think about it on bad days, which I try not to have, because in my heart I canât stand to think the worst. I really canât stand it. If Iâm having a long or hard week, though, or if Iâm super-bored and wishing I had a different life, I think some really dark things. I think, âthe difference between the hospital and an axe murderer is that the axe murderer is trying to kill you quickly, but the hospital is trying to do it slow.â I know this sounds kind of haggard. But I have got to say what I mean here or there isnât any point.
I think hardly anybody in those places really knew what was going on out on the unit. The nurses stayed in the office or ran groups, and you guys had your sessions, but we lived in our rooms and in the classes and the hallways. So, it might surprise you when I tell you that the main thing we all thought and talked about, amongst ourselves when you werenât listening, was death. Everybody talked about death all the time. It didnât scare us. We knew you were all terrified that something was going to happen to us and youâd have to pay for it, and that gave us power. If one kid with enough charisma had floated the idea past us, Iâm sure we would have all killed ourselves on the same day just to spite you all.
The song after âAfter Foreverâ is just a thirty-second guitar part with a name. Thereâs almost nothing there. Maybe that is why they called it âEmbryo.â It is about the most harmless thing in the world. Iâm not sure if itâs two parts recorded separately and then layered on top of each other, or if Tony Iommi is kind of showing off. I canât even tell what itâs supposed to be, if itâs an introduction to the next song or if Iâm supposed to think about it separately. I mean, it has a name, and so does the other instrumental on the album, which is called âOrchidâ and happens right after âChildren of the Grave,â which is the song right after âEmbryo.â One time I had a very deep discussion with my friend Mike about this.
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