Why Me? by Sharon-Ann Phillips

Author:Sharon-Ann Phillips
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Brown Dog Books

Chapter 11

STAND ON THE WORD

I had also been directed by my Pastor on how to receive my healing. “Stand on the word!” she had instructed. “Trust God and be sure to keep the faith!” Having purchased a book called ‘90 Days to Possessing Your Healing’ by Kynan Bridges: I would read it daily and say the healing prayers which accompanied it.

Claude was angry that I was ill. It was clearly written in every breath she took. She fought hard to conceal her pain and anger, but it was impossible for her, who undoubtedly wore her heart on her sleeve. I knew she was crying and could not bear to think of losing another sister. She continually asked, “Why you, Shaz?” “What have you done to deserve this?”

One day, on my hospital bed, I looked up at her and said, “I’m reminded of a story in the Bible, John 9, where the disciples asked Jesus (and I’m paraphrasing) why a particular blind man was born blind; in fact, they asked him, ‘Who sinned?’ Was it the sin of his parents or himself? And Jesus had answered, ‘Neither sinned, it’s so that the works of my Father be made manifest in him.’ Claude, likewise, I had replied, “I believe that this has happened to me and if I just have faith as small as a mustard seed, then God can heal me and HE will be glorified.” She took a deep breath. I saw her chest almost morph up into her shoulders; she said nothing, but was clearly distraught. Usually calm in nature, cheerful and content, she now seemed infuriated and short-tempered with everything and everyone around her.

Claude, although reluctant, would update the chat in line with my requests. If she had had her own way, she would not be updating anyone, or at least not so many people with what she deemed to be a private affair; she could easily have done without the WhatsApp chat. I, on the other hand, wanted to let all my friends and family know exactly how I was feeling and provide a daily account. (I often look back at the chat in great admiration.)

I also wanted everyone to pray every step of the way, as scriptures indicated that if one chased a thousand and two put 10,000 to flight, if we were more than two, and all stood together in agreement, then the magnitude of the prayers would be colossal. Everyone was updated with the treatment plans and meetings. What started out as my personal diary soon became a full-blown forum and blog.

Claude often told me that I couldn’t afford to ‘have anything against anyone’. I knew exactly what she meant, as physically and mentally I did not need to be affected or bogged down by any emotional heaviness. I explained to her that I felt so covered by prayer; as well as the friends and family that were praying for me, the day before my hospital admission, Pastor Denis and Lorna had visited me

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