Skin Game by Lawrence C. Ross

Author:Lawrence C. Ross
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Kensington Publishing Corp.
Published: 2007-09-24T04:00:00+00:00

Chapter 19

Let’s not forget that the little emotions are the great captains of our lives and we obey them without realizing it.

—Vincent van Gogh

Keisha slowly walked into the dressing room, the sensation in her body numb to any emotion or thought. She was just there. Trevi was already in the dressing room, busy laughing with Marisa and Allison, while the rest of the crew was eating lunch. Trevi still had two more scenes to do.

“How are you feeling, Keisha?” Trevi asked.

“I don’t know,” she responded, taking her clothes off of the rack. She slowly began to dress, putting on her jeans first.

“That’s exactly how I felt when I finished my first scenes,” Trevi said.

“Don’t worry. You’ll get used to it,” Marisa said. “Every actress does. What you have to develop is a method of coping.”

“A method of coping?” Keisha asked wearily. “What the hell is that?”

“Little things,” she said. “What you did out there was not intercourse, but penetration.”

“Penetration? What’s the difference?”

“It’s subtle,” Trevi said. “Intercourse is what I have with my boyfriend, or in my personal life. That comes with feelings and emotions. What I do on the set is have a man penetrate me, and that’s completely different. Penetration is a job. I may cum with both, but there’s a big difference. Once you understand those differences, it’ll make your job a lot easier.”

Keisha stopped. “Don’t you feel used, whether or not you figure out a way to not make it personal?”

Allison started laughing.

“What?” Keisha asked. “Did I say something funny?”

“Yeah, you did,” Allison said. “You asked if people felt used. Girl, what the hell did you think this was? This is porn! Of course a person feels used, because that’s the point of porn. We use each other as much as possible. And when you don’t have any more use, you’re done. Come on, Keisha, you’re smarter than that. You knew what you were getting into, and you got what you expected.”

She didn’t say another word to anyone until Steven walked into the room.

“Keisha, I just wanted to say that you were great out there,” he said, smiling. “You were nervous, but you overcame that. You were a real professional, and you should be proud of yourself. Now in the next scenes—”

“I’m done,” she said. “There are no next scenes.”

“Wait, you have two more scenes to do,” he said, staring at her intently.

“Where’s my money?” Keisha said, putting on her top.

“I’ve got it right here,” Steven said, pulling out a white envelope. “It was money well deserved. I think we’re going to sell tons of videos. I want to use you for another video as soon—”

“Just give me my money,” she said, grabbing the envelope and her bag. She didn’t appear to be angry or agitated, she just wanted to get out of there.

“Do you need a ride home?” Steven asked, as Keisha walked out of the dressing room.

“No, I got it, thanks,” she said, without turning around. As she was walking to the door, she passed the cast and crew, who were eating their lunch.

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