Let It Go: 12 New Steps for Tapping the Power of Your Mind to Overcome Addiction with FasterEFT by Bonnett Marguerite

Author:Bonnett, Marguerite [Bonnett, Marguerite]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: FasterEFTworks
Published: 2015-06-24T16:00:00+00:00

Step Six

MAKE PEACE INSIDE EVERY MEMORY

We define ourselves by the best that is in us, not the worst that has been done to us.

~Edward Lewis

Let us now live out of our imagination instead of our memory.

~Les Brown

When I was eleven years old, I witnessed the aftermath of a terrible crime. A man was attacked and badly beaten by a deranged assailant less than a block from our home. After a harrowing ordeal, he escaped and sought safety at the nearest house with a light on. Our house was empty except for me, my younger sister and our childhood caregiver, Becky, who was cleaning the kitchen. The shock of seeing this bloody and battered stranger at our back door was traumatic. I froze and became speechless, while my younger sister threw up at the sight of him.

After the ambulance came and took the man to the hospital, the gravity of that situation and all of its ramifications were permanently imprinted deep in my unconscious mind.

Memory is a tricky thing. I am not exactly sure what I saw that night because apparently my memory has changed over the years. I recently asked my younger sister what she saw and our two memories were slightly different. My memory was of this stranger crawling through the back door on his hands and knees while my sister remembered him leaning on the door bell outside the sliding glass door to our kitchen. In reality, neither of us saw the man enter the house. We both constructed memories of his arrival from things we heard later on. What really happened was, Becky brought us downstairs to “See what happens to people who roam the streets at night.” The stranger was not at the door when we saw him. He was in horrible shape, but he was sitting at our kitchen table, waiting for the police and ambulance to arrive.

Becky must have sincerely believed that if we saw someone battered and bloody, it would help us to behave responsibly and keep us safe in the future. That may sound like a ridiculous thing to show two children. However, Becky was old enough to remember the terrible story of the kidnapping and death of famous aviator Charles Lindbergh’s baby. I remember her talking about it and expressing fear that my sister and I, the children of her famous employer (my mother), could be the target of a kidnapper. She always kept a close eye on us. I can only imagine that she was prepared to do anything to keep us safe on her watch. Looking back on it, my life would probably have been quite different without that particular lesson, but what I know now is that she was doing the best she could with the information she had at the time.

Unfortunately, that horrible memory grew and changed inside my young mind as I tried to make sense of it and give it appropriate meaning. Eventually, my unconscious mind combined what I actually saw with snippets of information I overheard from adults, both at home and on the news.

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