I Found Her at Christmas by Emelia Ryder
Author:Emelia Ryder [Ryder, Emelia]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2016-01-03T23:00:00+00:00
Chapter Six
I go home and barricade myself in my bedroom. My father doesnât call out to me as I pass the living room, so heâs either too engrossed in his show to notice, or heâs fallen asleep. I suspect he doesnât sleep well at night, so he takes a lot of naps in the living room.
I know I have to tell Jeff, but the longer I have this realization the more it terrifies me. Jeffâs reaction to me kissing Gemma last night replays over and over again in my mind. How will he take this news? Not well, I know that for sure.
Is there a way I can end things without telling him the truth? But that wouldnât be fair to him. Nor would it be likely that he wouldnât eventually figure things out himself.
Weâve been together for so long. Our relationship has reached the point that family members and friends (his friends, mostly, since I donât have many) are expecting us to stay together forever and get married and have cute little Meadows-Russell babies. Life with Jeff by my side is a familiar and comforting one, but itâs also restrictive. I was just a kid when I got together with him - and letâs face it, I still am. But I was 18 years old, fresh out of high school and brand new to college. He was the cute boy who looked my way, and I swooned for him.
But now that old feeling of love has disappeared, faded away. It hasnât turned into that comforting love many people feel, the long term stuff. Itâs just vanished. Being around him feels taxing when it used to feel refreshing.
I want that new feeling again, that fresh love. And when I think of that feeling, I think of Gemma, not Jeff. I donât know what will happen between us - for all I know I have these feeling because sheâs the first girl Iâve ever kissed. But right now, those feelings are real and I have to pursue them.
I donât know what to call myself. âLesbianâ? It doesnât matter, not at this point. All I know now is that the mere thought of Gemma makes a smile curl across my face. All I know now is that I lie awake in bed at night with her face on my mind, imagining her lips pressed against mine and wanting to do it again and again and again.
If she would even take me . . . I sit up in horror on my bed. I ran from Gemma like she was some terrible person last night. I havenât answered a single one of her calls. I need to talk to her, immediately. I need to apologize.
Iâm picking up my phone to dial Gemmaâs number when it rings in my hand. I look down at it in surprise. Jeff is calling me.
I sit there, completely frozen for a long moment. I know that I should pick up. Talking to him now would be perfect. I could come clean and get it over with, rip off the band-aid cleanly and efficiently.
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