Eight Kinky Nights by Xan West
Author:Xan West [West, Xan]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: holiday romance, Chanukah romance, contemporary romance, f/f, BDSM, polyamory, Friends to Lovers, kink, seasoned romance, getting your groove back, roommates to lovers, kink lessons, erotica
Publisher: Xan West
Published: 2019-12-15T23:00:00+00:00
Chapter 32
Tuesday afternoon, December 24
Leah
LeahBlumensteinNYC: Well arenât you a breath of fresh air.
PanStoneButch: Am I?
LeahBlumensteinNYC: Yeah. You really are.
Had she really said that? It was what sheâd been thinking since that first scene, but she hadnât really meant to blurt it out like that.
PanStoneButch: Can you tell me more about that?
LeahBlumensteinNYC: Ok. Iâve played with other novice dominants before. They donât usually...surprise me like you do.
PanStoneButch: I see.
LeahBlumensteinNYC: Thatâs a compliment, in case that wasnât clear.
PanStoneButch: Oh, is it now?
LeahBlumensteinNYC: Yes. The surprises are good ones.
PanStoneButch: It would be helpful to have examples.
LeahBlumensteinNYC: Oh. Ok. I was being vague wasnât I?
PanStoneButch: A bit, yes.
Sheâd been avoiding. Because it felt...vulnerable to talk about. But she should.
LeahBlumensteinNYC: So I think part of it is that you seem to be pleased by things I wouldnât have anticipated, and they catch me by surprise. Which isnât really about you being a novice at all.
PanStoneButch: *nods*
PanStoneButch: *waits for examples*
Right. Of course.
LeahBlumensteinNYC: Like, you praised me for telling you I couldnât take more of the bristles. You didnât expect me to be super still, in fact you were clear that wasnât something you wanted. And, you seemed pleased when I showed initiative and went and got the wedge. Itâs like...you value different things from most of the folks Iâve played with.
PanStoneButch: Those are good surprises?
LeahBlumensteinNYC: Yeah. Itâs exciting, keeps me on my toes, not knowing, and having a bunch of new stuff to learn. But also. I donât know.
PanStoneButch: *gently* I think you know. Itâs ok to say it.
LeahBlumensteinNYC: I think the stuff you value...it makes me feel safe in a new way. Like I can react how I react, and you want that. I donât have to try to act like a submissive is generally expected to act. I can have helpful ideas and expertise and offer them, and they arenât assumed to be challenging your dominance. My boundaries and sensory needs are seen as good and important and you want me to communicate about them.
PanStoneButch: *listening*
LeahBlumensteinNYC: Because, like, for some dominants the question isnât whether Iâm up for a sensation or not, but whether Iâm willing to tolerate intense difficulty and discomfort, or canât tolerate it. I donât think they get the way that works for me sensorily, to tolerate sensations my body is rejecting. Yes I can gut my way through it, Iâve got tons of practice at tolerating sensory awfulness, but it will be hugely draining and cost me so much for the next several days and make everything that comes after it unpredictable and hyperintense and often intolerable. Iâve tried to explain, but itâs like they just donât get it, so I just stopped trying after a while. For them itâs all about me using my will to submit to force myself to take things, as the ultimate value. And that kind of play changes how submission feels, to me.
PanStoneButch: Maybe they donât get it because theyâre allistic? (Iâm just guessing.)
LeahBlumensteinNYC: Yeah. Probably. I havenât played with many autistic doms.
PanStoneButch: Leah,
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