Songs to Break Up To (Road Kings Book 6) by Julie Kriss

Author:Julie Kriss [Kriss, Julie]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2024-06-27T00:00:00+00:00

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Juliet

I could have said it was the wine, but it wasn’t the wine.

I excused myself to go to the bathroom, just for something to do. An excuse to catch my breath. The conversation, like every conversation with him, pulled me in directions I wasn’t used to. It confused me and illuminated everything at the same time.

No, my reaction wasn’t because of the wine. It was Finn.

I closed the door behind me and stood at the expansive bathroom counter, big enough for two sinks. I ran cold water and splashed it on my face. That smeared my mascara, so I yanked at a tissue and wiped my eyes. I was a mess.

My thoughts jumbled faster than I could sort them. I kept thinking about Finn, a few years older than when I met him, lying in a Parisian park, staring at the sky. Where was I while he was doing that? Maybe, at the exact moment that Finn was lying in a park, I was breaking up with my band, or meeting someone new, or collecting my shit from a guy’s apartment because I was never going to see him again. I was gritting my teeth to pursue a dream that was never going to happen. I was getting hurt and pretending not to show it. I was enduring stale phone calls with my mother, pretending that everything was her fault so that I could make myself feel better. I was worrying about how much I weighed.

And with a painful, twisting ache, I wished that I had made a different decision the night I met Finn. I could have told him how much I liked him on first sight. I could have told him I wanted to see him again. Maybe he would have said no, but I could have tried.

And if he had said yes—then I could have lain in that park with him, looking at the sky. The girl I had been had needed something like that, someone like that, so desperately, but instead, I had pulled my usual shit. I had given him attitude. I had decided to be hurt. I had been so sure I didn’t need anyone.

Granted, my boyfriend that night had sucker-punched me. But Vicki and Alistair had started dating. If I had ever wanted to track down Finn, all I needed to do was ask. I could have called him anytime in the last thirteen years. Hey, remember me? The crazy girl you met that night? Well, I’m over that asshole. Want to go out sometime?

Would he have done it? I knew the answer without asking him now, because I knew Finn. Yes, he would have.

I had wasted time.

He hadn’t contacted me, either. Because I had told him to fuck off. I had said See you never. He’d been at the beginning of a spiral—he could have used a friend, at least. Someone in his corner, someone to wake up with who thought he was worth something. I could have used that, too.

It was

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