Remember by Dylan Allen

Author:Dylan Allen
Language: eng
Format: mobi
ISBN: 9780998624624
Publisher: DA Publishing
Published: 2017-05-30T04:00:00+00:00

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IT’S Friday night and today has been a particularly stressful one. I’m so glad I’ve decided to start this business. Not just because I’ll be earning an income. But because I’ve realized the Milly who was class mother, always at school volunteering, was living a lie. My wings, long tucked under my body and unused, are starting to unfold.

I'm not judging those for whom that is enough, but I'm realizing it isn't enough for me. That I'm planning a party for Dean makes it even more high stakes. I want it to be perfect.

Cristal was professional when I called to let her know I would in fact accept the contract, but I could hear a distance in her voice that hadn’t been there before. I'm sure she thinks the only reason I have gotten this job is because of Dean, and I want to prove her wrong.

I spent the afternoon at Anthony’s school volunteering in the library. I tried to be more engaging than I normally am, but all this led to was me fielding about half a dozen “sympathetic” questions about Kevin and the woman he brought with him last night.

“She looked so young.”

“I don’t know how you managed to sit through that entire performance with your husband and his girlfriend right behind you.”

“They must be serious if he brought her here.”

I wanted to scream. Instead I just nodded.

I’ve never understood this about some women. I have two sisters who despite geography and huge differences in personality, are my best friends. They were my first friends. I learned how to love, encourage, and uplift other women by having good relationships with them.

The notion of intentionally hurting someone just because it makes you feel better about your own sorry state is completely unfathomable to me. Therefore, these women and their behavior totally bewilders and wounds me.

Not because I'm sad Kevin is with Rachael. But because they would use it as a weapon against me.

My mother always says that misery loves company. That when someone is trying to hurt you it’s because they are hurting themselves. So, I look at those women and I only feel sympathy for them.

I left that afternoon as friendless as I arrived, but with a bit of clarity, too.

I have spent years settling for safety. I wanted to be with someone so desperately I essentially abandoned myself. I have had my world ripped out from under my feet, I have been humiliated publicly and am facing the risk of losing custody of my son.

My mettle is being tested, I’m either going to crumble or I'm going to come out stronger. Right now, I’d take odds on the latter.

Today, for the first time in ten years, I thought about a future that is based on what I want. I want to find my passion and pursue it. I want to show my son that his mother can do anything she puts her mind to and therefore, he can, too.

I have a date tonight. With a gorgeous, blond Adonis who I had sex with last week.

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