The Toxic Children by Tessa Maurer

Author:Tessa Maurer [Maurer, Tessa]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Amazon: B016GJFNUU
Goodreads: 27218043
Published: 2015-10-20T16:00:00+00:00

Chapter [7]

A few days pass, my mind in a strange sort of haze. The kill in me is strong, and the more I ignore it, the sicker I feel. The red left a book on my doorstep, some gesture of humanity I cannot process. The sight of it made me sick with glimpses of memories that shouldn’t be left in my head. I am supposed to be past this point. I need to be—I need to stop fighting inside of myself. I need to lose. That would be the best thing. That would end this madness.

I walk down the street, the sun nearly set. It is silent. Something snaps in the distance and I hear the crunch of leaves. I stand still, waiting, listening. Out from the bushes, I see the glint of red hair reflected in the last of the sun. When she sees me, the fear in her eyes tells me that to kill her would be very…satisfying. Some part of my head, some distant, locked away part, screams. For the first time in a long time, I hear it. It hurts my head.

The girl grips her gun tightly. This is not on her terms; she did not mean to run into me. I watch her, waiting to see what she does.

“When you don’t speak, you scare the hell out of me,” she says. I can see she’s shaking in the cold.

“And when I do?”

“You make me afraid of myself.”

“Why?”

“Because I realize how insane I really am,” she says, the gun lowering subconsciously. “Sometimes I harm myself to make sure I’m still alive—to feel something. Sometimes I think I’m just as soulless as the Adaptions.”

The thought of that, of her mutilating her own body, twists me. There is something wrong about it; it’s not something animals do, and even humans are animals—they are the worst animals of them all.

“Why do you tell me these things?” I ask, trying to understand something that feels so vividly. She doesn’t know what numbness means.

“I don’t know!” she nearly shouts. “I hate who I am and what I am. I hate what the entire human race did. Do you realize humans are dead? I am of the last of my kind. Any child conceived by a human will be an Adaption. We fucked up so badly that monsters were a better fit to rule the earth.”

“You may have to live with the guilt of humanity, but I have to live with it dying inside of me,” I say, anger warming my skin. “This game you are playing is a dangerous one. It’s going to kill you and kill the thing in me that talks to you.”

Her eyes fill with water. “I would trade places with you if I could. None of you deserved the life you got. My brother’s eyes were so alive. He loved, I swear to you. We kept him locked up. I killed him before he killed me. He made it to five. How is that fair?” she says, the water falling.

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