That One Day (That One #1.5) by Josie Wright

Author:Josie Wright [Wright, Josie]
Language: eng
Format: epub
ISBN: 9781532723438
Amazon: 1532723431
Publisher: CreateSpace Independent Publishing Platform
Published: 2016-05-05T23:00:00+00:00

Chapter 26

Out of the Woods

Cold air fills my lungs with every breath I take. I’ve been sitting on this fallen tree for a few minutes, staring out into the fields and forest and trying to process what went down. What brought me here.

The day started out so fucking well. With everyone home, we’d been having a nice breakfast and it felt like I belong. For the first time in two years, I felt really at home somewhere. Especially once we started making Christmas plans.

I’d been worried Frankie wouldn’t want me around for Christmas. It’s a time to spend with people you like and love, not with someone who ripped your heart out. But to my surprise, she wanted me around. Even started planning for me to play Santa for Archer. I’ve been fucking excited, even though I was giving her a hard time about the whole Santa deal. The plans got even better when it turned out Dave would be coming here for Christmas.

Now I doubt I will be welcomed for any of it. The way Frankie looked at me, I wouldn’t be surprised if I find all my shit on the doorstep. Within minutes, any progress we might have made went to hell. And I want to blame my mom or Frankie, but I know I should’ve reacted differently. Shouldn’t have gone off on her like that. For some reason, I just don’t have a handle on my emotions lately. I feel so fucking overwhelmed.

When Frankie confronted me after her phone call with her mom, asking why I haven’t spoken to mine or told her about Archer, I just snapped. The idea of my mom snooping around freaked me out. Instead of letting it go, Frankie kept pushing and pushing. Finally, the lies, secrets, and fears boiled over and I ended up yelling at her—yet again, hurting her feelings. As if that wasn’t enough to ensure every little trust I might have gained dissolved into thin air, I then took off into the woods and ended up here.

“Fuck.” I slam my palms against the tree trunk, barely feeling the sting.

I should have stayed calmer, been nicer, less fucking brutal. Everything is getting to me, though. Every step I take I’m unsure if it’ll bring me closer to Frankie or drive us further apart. With every fucking day, with every one of those thoughts I have, I see more and more similarities between my dad and me.

The way I can’t stop thinking about Frankie, trying to win her back. The all-consuming love for Archer and the fact that I would lay down my life for him—even after knowing him only a couple weeks. What will happen if Frankie says no? If there’s no chance of getting her back? If she finds someone else to take my place? Will I end up like my father?

I considered talking to a shrink, to share my fears and figure out if that scenario is likely. But all the research I have done has shown mental illness can, but doesn’t have to be, hereditary.

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