Profane Friendship by Harold Brodkey

Author:Harold Brodkey
Language: eng
Format: mobi, epub
Tags: General, Fiction
ISBN: 9781446419793
Publisher: Random House
Published: 2010-12-14T13:00:00+00:00

This part of the sexual history, the mutual or unmutual masturbation, was not repeated often. But it became masturbation without any touching at all. The stuff became masturbation in each other’s presence while talking about our bitterness over life or some girl, or even less, me being private, doing it in the john and talking to him in the other room where he has a towel in his hand.

Then came a month when I felt too old, and even that was too disgusting . . . Except sometimes . . .

He is more expert in a great many ways in giving pleasure and in responding to a fairly wide range of kinks and desires than I am. I have only a daydream interest in being pleasing. Or in being pleased by a lover. But we are not lovers, are we? He was not a lover of mine, was he?

We are almost as different as we can be. “Do opposites attract? Do you love me more than you love your mother, Onni?”

That was a common insult. It was a mockery we used back then.

“You cocksucker,” he said in English.

“That’s slander.”

He butts my neck with the side of his head, and I black out but I hang on to his shoulders. In that shock the truth of his presence, as so often, overcame me. He leans close and says into my ear, “A girl’s mouth is strange ...” He means a boy’s mouth is just a mouth. It is an insult. He said, “Is your mind strange?” Then his lips pressed partly toughly, partly sinuously on my mouth, conferring conflicting humiliations—mockery, dismissal—and rewards, love, envy, appetite . . . He said, wiping his mouth: “It’s like kissing the dictionary. When a girl sticks a tongue in your mouth, Nino, does she feel your brain?”

He does not know how to love. He does not know how to love me. He has to learn. Perhaps he will. Perhaps he will not.

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