Nobody's Hero by Kallypso Masters

Author:Kallypso Masters
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: romance, erotica, sex toys, erotic romance, bdsm, domination, submission, bondage, series, contemporary romance, rough sex, rope bondage, adult romance, military romance, rescue me series, subspace, submission and dominance romance, sizzling hot sex, subdrop
Publisher: Kallypso Masters

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Adam parked the rental along the winding roadway with two wheels in the grass so as not to impede others visiting loved ones today. With a heavy sigh, he opened the door and got out, not wanting to have this conversation. Most years, he looked forward to his time here with Joni, telling her about what he’d been doing and how much he wished she were with him to share it.

But now he needed to tell her about Karla. What the fuck was he going to say? He felt disloyal.

A crust on the top of the snow crunched under his boots as he walked up the slight hill. At first, he avoided looking at her tombstone while he busied himself with clearing snow from the marble bench he’d had placed there for Joni’s mom to make use of during her visits in better weather. Marge always left him his privacy for his first visit to Joni’s grave, on their wedding anniversary, but he’d bring her out here tomorrow before he headed back to Denver. She probably wouldn’t get out here again for awhile, now that she was moving to assisted living, and winter was setting in with a vengeance.

He sat against the frigid stone and looked down at his hands. Memories of his twenty years with Joni played like a movie in his head. They’d been separated a lot by war, but the times they’d had together had been good ones. For him, at least. He knew he hadn’t ever been able to give Joni the things she wanted most—a child.

Or his love.

The backs of his eyes burned as he looked up at the cold, hard granite stone with the Montague named etched across the surface and a lighthouse carved to the right of her name.

Joni, beloved wife.

“Joni, my beloved li’l subbie.”

She’d given him one-hundred percent of herself. He’d only given about eighty percent back, at best. Would he have been able to surrender the remainder if they’d been together after he’d retired from the Marines? Could he open that part of himself to any woman?

“I’m so sorry, baby.” His raspy words were whipped away on the wind. “You deserved so much better than you got with me.”

The guilt that had been eating at him ever since he’d come home on hardship leave from Afghanistan to find her in the last weeks of her life, hanging on through the pain just to have him beside her, assaulted him once more. Toward the end, he’d begged for God to take her. He couldn’t watch her suffer any more. Her mom had told him she wouldn’t let go as long as she thought he needed her, so he’d released her and promised they’d be together again. Then he’d held her in his arms as the final breath left her ravaged body.

Her body had begun to grow cold before her mom had forced him to let go physically. Joni had been his anchor for twenty years. She’d taught him a lot about love, honor, and commitment, lessons he hadn’t learned growing up.

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