#Fangirlproblems by Jennie Bennett

Author:Jennie Bennett [Bennett, Jennie]
Language: eng
Format: epub, azw3
ISBN: 9781982916411
Published: 2018-05-20T04:00:00+00:00

#fangirlproblem14

There’s no separating the fangirl from the emotions.

With my head hung low, I start retreating.

Chansol puts his arms around me, pulling me into his chest in a back hug. “It’s okay,” he says. “I’ll stick around for a while.”

I twirl around—breaking his grip—my vision fuzzy with tears. That kiss was too amazing. His arms around me feel too good. The sound of his soothing voice does too many things to my soul.

“A while?” I say, backing away until I’m in the living room. Distance. “What are you even doing here, really?”

I need to know, because each second I spend with him becomes more tainted.

“Talitha.” Even the sound of my name on his lips is overwhelming. “It’s not what you think.”

What does that mean? Is it because he knows what a weakness he is to me? Does he understand how much it hurts knowing it can’t last? Because right now, I feel like he’s taking advantage of my feelings for some physical pleasure.

“Then what?” I say. “Any second, Taehyun will call and I’ll never see you again. Dammit, Chansol, I care about you. This can’t be some fling. Not for me.”

“I know,” he says, pulling at the sides of his hair.

I scoff. He knows? If he really knew, he never would’ve followed me outside. If he understood what the simple act of him being near me does, he wouldn’t have tortured me this way.

I wait, arms folded and eyebrows raised.

“No one’s calling me,” he says.

I’m not sure I heard that right. If I did, that would mean he actually wants to stay here― which doesn’t make sense. “I’m sorry?”

He smiles. “I told them not to bug me. The concert’s been pushed back a day because of the media, and―”

“Hang on.” I have to stop him because I need to understand what he’s saying.

So, he wasn’t honest about someone coming to get him, and he’s been making excuses ever since we got here. I’m not even sure if anything he said was one-hundred-percent truth.

I should forgive him for lying. I should be ecstatic because he did all those things to spend more time with me, but I don’t get why he needed to do it that way.

One look at him and those big dark eyes melt me. How can I hate him when he’s so beautiful? I can’t just let it go, though; he needs to understand.

“There’s something I don’t think you get,” I say. “It’s great that you’re staying. I want you to stay. But it’s not enough. That kiss―” I have to stop because I’m choking up. It’s hard to talk about what just happened because I want to pretend it was a dream.

I only imagined feeling his hands all over me. Only envisioned being so close to him we were practically one person.

“That kiss,” I say again, the lump in my throat making it hard to talk, “is just a tease. It’s a reminder of what I’ll never have. I’d rather not be close to you. I don’t want to spend time with you if it’s going to end.

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