Blood of Angels (Halfway Between Book 2) by Kathryn Ann Kingsley
Author:Kathryn Ann Kingsley [Kingsley, Kathryn Ann]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2020-02-03T16:00:00+00:00
Chapter Twelve
The next morning, she stood in the shower, trying to straighten out her thoughts. Alistairâs words were still tangled up in her head, and she was attempting to sort through how she felt about them.
Sheâd admit she was wrong about his suffering. She had claimed he couldnât possibly be lonely. But the darkness in his eyes when he had told her of how much loss heâd suffered was undeniable. Not even he could lie his way through that. She had seen into a chasm of a manâof an archdemonâand it was far deeper than she had ever thought.
I hide behind this veneer of a man to conceal my sorrow, my loneliness, my pain.
Lowering her head beneath the stream of water, she let the hot water sort out the tension in her shoulders.
How did she feel about him?
It was a tangled ball of stupid emotions. It was like that ball of Christmas lights after ten years in storage. Better to chuck the whole thing and buy a new strand than spend a solid week trying to straighten it all out.
But she was stuck with this mess. She didnât have a choice. She had to metaphorically sit down and figure it all out. She didnât even know where to start. Letting the water pour over her, she tried to take each thing she felt one at a time and label and understand it.
The first part of her sympathized with him and wanted to reach out to himâwanted to forgive him. She couldnât deny that part of her understood why he had made her. At least in part. It also wasnât a fact that was ever going to change. She existed, and by the looks of things, she was going to keep existing for a long time. People didnât get to pick how they came into this world. Being pissed about it was only going to make it worse.
And, as she said to him yesterday, she didnât hate Azrael. So how was it fair to hate Asmodeus for the same deed? He had sculpted her for very different needs. He had made the body she knew was beautiful for his own desires. It had always felt wrongâentitledâto hate her body when she knew there were a hundred million people in the world who would kill to live in it instead.
But there was a sick, twisted aspect to that part of her story that set Azrael and Asmodeus apart on the sliding scale of douchebag actions. Their motives hadnât been the same, after all. Azrael wanted a daughter. Asmodeus wanted a wife. They were very, very different things. Oneâs motivation was pure. The other, hungry.
Part one wasnât solvable, so she put it aside and considered the second part of what she felt. The part that wanted to run away. That one was easy to dismiss. She wasnât a coward. And she didnât have a choice. It was easy to be brave when there werenât options.
Part three, a pretty decently-sized chunk of how she felt really wanted to kick his teeth in.
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