Beauty and the Band Geek by Mia Archer

Author:Mia Archer [Archer, Mia]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Amazon: B071J4BHCV
Goodreads: 35224564
Published: 2017-05-24T03:00:00+00:00

17

Katie

“That has to suck,” I said. “How long have you known?”

“How long have you known?” he asked, hitting me with that piercing look again.

The meaning there was clear. He wasn’t going to admit anything for sure until I was admitting something to him for sure. I suppose that was fair.

Still, it was difficult. The only person I’d ever admitted this to was Gwen, for obvious reasons. It’s not like I was going to get any of the benefits from Dirk that I got from her.

And I couldn’t shake the feeling that there was something wrong about admitting this to a complete stranger. Like maybe this was part of some plot to get the goods on me and then he’d blab it to the school.

Yet at the same time it felt easier with him. He was practically a complete stranger. I mean sure I knew him in the same way everyone knew everyone else when you went to a school in a town as small as ours, but I didn’t really know him.

Somehow admitting it to him didn’t seem nearly as potentially disastrous as admitting it to someone I knew and cared about. For example see how long it took for me to admit my feelings to Gwen and she was the one I had the damned feelings for in the first place!

I took a deep breath. Tried to calm myself down though I’m not sure how good a job I really did.

I felt lightheaded. My scalp started to tingle and not in a good way. I couldn’t believe I was actually about to do this. I couldn’t believe I was going to admit a truth I’d been reluctant to even admit to myself as recently as a few weeks ago.

“Yeah, I’m into girls,” I said. “Mostly. I mean I’ve had a few experiences with guys, but I’m pretty sure I wasn’t nearly as into it as I was with…”

“With your friend?” he prompted, then sighed. “Man, you’re so fucking lucky. I don’t even have something like that. The moment I breathe a word of something like that to someone on the team or one of my friends they’ll…”

His voice caught. I was surprised to realize that Dirk, manly Dirk, studly Dirk, Dirk who was the envy of every guy in the school for all the girls he could pull and the desire of all those girls who wanted to be pulled, was on the verge of tears as he thought about the disaster that would hit him if anyone had even an inkling of an idea that he wasn’t straight as an arrow.

My heart went out to him. In a way it made me feel better about my situation. It was like I was looking at it from the outside and for some reason that sort of put things into perspective. Made me realize that maybe things weren’t as bad as I thought they could be.

I reached out and hesitated, then put a hand on his shoulder. He looked down and smiled.

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