Armor Your Mind: Master Mental Resilience in the Face of Adversity & Conquer Your Ambitions with Confidence by Prox Carl

Author:Prox, Carl [Prox, Carl]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Accolades Publishing LLC
Published: 2021-11-21T16:00:00+00:00

MY OWN PERSONAL STORY

After suffering from sexual abuse, I was afraid to seek any kind of help or even mention it and kept everything buried inside me instead. By the time I got to 6th grade, my mom was diagnosed with schizophrenia so I couldn’t turn to her, and my dad was gone working most of the time. Sadly, we had developed a disconnect at this point in our relationship and I didn’t feel that I could turn to him with what I was facing. I felt embarrassed, which is why I was terrified to say anything; what would people think of me if they knew what happened to me? I was battling with my own mind, and this left me feeling totally alone. Going into my sophomore year of high school, my parents divorced and, shortly after, my mom moved away. Everything just pushed me to the edge, and it got to the point where I even contemplated taking my own life. I was tired of being bullied by older kids on the dead-end street where I was living, and a recent heartbreak had left me feeling totally alone. It seemed as if no one loved me or cared about me and I didn’t see any point in living. I was done.

I had a very hard time concentrating in school and had developed a bad stutter after the abuse happened when I was younger. This lack of concentration and stuttering continued through high school and had an extremely negative impact on how I felt about myself. Wrestling did help in many ways, but the pain was so deep, even that couldn’t save me. Feeling alone and unworthy, I decided one night that I’d had enough and around 2 a.m., committing suicide was the only thing on my mind.

Then something weird happened. I felt this urge to go for a run instead, so off I went, blasting Skillet in my headphones. After running for 7 miles, I stopped and dropped to my knees. At that moment, I decided to give my life to God; and so, following that night, I began attending a youth group where I became a worship drummer, which helped immensely. But even then, I still felt as if I was carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders and wanted to be free. I didn’t know how to achieve this, so I decided to go on an 11-month, 11-country Christian mission trip known as The World Race.

It seemed like the right thing for me to do at the time, and I am grateful that I did, because in 2012, I had a breakthrough. I finally managed to share my abuse story with my squad while on The World Race, and a friend on the mission trip recommended I read a book called Redeeming Love by Francine Rivers. After taking her advice, I started to genuinely experience God’s love for me and began to see myself as worthy, rather than unworthy. I managed to find the

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