Amish Brides of Willow Creek 1-4 Omnibus by Samantha Jillian Bayarr

Author:Samantha Jillian Bayarr [Bayarr, Samantha Jillian]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Livingston Hall Publishers, LLC
Published: 2015-05-22T16:00:00+00:00

CHAPTER 29

Miriam twisted at the long tendrils she’d freed from her prayer kapp, waiting for Ray to answer his door. She didn’t know why she felt the need to ring the bell, but after the way she’d left him two hours ago, she feared she’d ruined her chances with him.

Lord, please put forgiveness in Ray’s heart for me the same way you did for the Amish community. Danki for blessing me with the words I needed to convey my remorse for my sins against them. Bless me with the same words now to make amends with the mann I love.

Ray opened the door, looking surprised to see her. “I didn’t really expect to see you back here.”

Trying not to cry, Miriam fought to find her voice. “I told you I needed to talk to you, but I had to address the Amish community first—to make amends.”

Ray took a step back. “Well come in out of the cold and snow.”

Miriam waved off Ben, who’d driven her, and watched as he steered Adam’s buggy around the circle drive and down the dirt lane to the main road. After, she followed Ray into the house. She paused before sitting on the sofa, wishing she could sit in her rocking chair just once more—in case Ray rejected her and sent her on her way.

“Would you like some coffee or cocoa to warm you up a bit?” he asked as he stoked the fire.

“No—thank you.” Miriam stood up nervously and walked over to the hearth and held her cold hands out toward the warm flames. It was something to occupy herself while she gathered her thoughts.

“I came to apologize for the way I’ve treated you, but I beg you to listen to why I did what I did. I’m not trying to make excuses for my behavior, because I take full responsibility, but I need you to know the reasons behind it.” She looked up at him to be sure he hadn’t lost interest.

“First, and most importantly, I want to say how deeply sorry I am for not trusting you with the news of the baby. I got scared when I found out I was pregnant, and after the accident, I was even more terrified when they confirmed the pregnancy because it meant I had to make some hard decisions.”

Ray guided her back to the sofa and wrapped a quilt around her shoulders. “I wish you would have included me in those decisions. Maybe then we wouldn’t be in this mess.”

“I was afraid if I didn’t stay in the Amish community, I would have to give the baby up for adoption the way my mother did to me. The Amish community was the only place I felt safe. But now I realize, Ray, that you would do anything you could to make me feel safe and to be sure we didn’t have to give up our child.”

“I would think my constant proposals and this house would be enough to make see that I would do anything for you and our child.

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