All Over Him by Ronald L Donaghe

Author:Ronald L Donaghe [Donaghe, Ronald L]
Language: eng
Format: epub
ISBN: 9780982350324
Publisher: Two Brothers Press
Published: 2009-03-16T13:00:00+00:00

Chapter Eleven:

ZZ Top and the Nightmare

I’m out here at the lake, and even though it’s still muggy and hot and I still sweat before I take a dip in the water to cool off, there’s been a change in the way the trees and grasses look. It’s late September and fall has begun its slow sapping of the green. In this heat, even the trees look kind of tired, ready to give up summer’s lush display. Almost a month has passed since I last wrote more than little diary entries in this journal. Classes have begun to stretch into infinity like a highway in the middle of West Texas, seeming never to have an end. And I feel as though I’ve been ruined by something that happened to me—or that I dreamed happened. Not knowing if it was real or imagined disturbs and haunts me during my waking hours. The texture and detail of the dream is always just out of reach for me to stare it in the face to see exactly what it is. I’ve even lost weight over the worry the dream causes me, because when it first occurred, I wasn’t sure at all that it was a dream. I’m still not really sure, and this doubt is what makes me sweat, makes me feel violated in a way I can’t grasp, and keeps me from eating. At times I feel sad and teary, at others just stunned with the endlessness of this semester and life here without Lance. So, I’ve been living in kind of a daze this entire month as fall slowly creeps in. And so I’ve decided I’ve got to write it down, but before I do, I need to get things down in the order that they happened.

* * *

I had left the house as usual the morning that Uncle Sean said Hank was going to spend the night. So I was in a great frame of mind when I got to work at the geology department, and my day went great. I saw Charlie for lunch and he reminded me about the ZZ Top concert, which was totally unnecessary, since posters had gone up around campus and practically everywhere you looked were reminders. Besides that, I walk or drive past the stadium almost every day, and that morning, three semi-trucks and a bus were parked outside the stadium. I remember being surprised that just one band would need so much equipment. Then that afternoon, I showered, got dressed, and visited with Uncle Sean for a few minutes, helping him to straighten the living room and put clean sheets on his bed. He was fretting and I was teasing him, and I left full of hope that all would go well for him, though I can’t say I was that excited about the concert, since I didn’t know much about the group.

When I got to Charlie’s dorm room, I was surprised to see other guys I recognized from GPA, including Tim, Renato, and Lee.

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