Yearn by A. D. Ellis

Author:A. D. Ellis [Ellis, A. D.]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: Romance, Gay / Lesbian / LGBT
ISBN: 9781942647799
Google: r31nzgEACAAJ
Amazon: B0926RX9J2
Goodreads: 57750745
Publisher: A.D. Ellis Publishing
Published: 2021-04-24T22:00:00+00:00

Nine

Dre

Holy shit.

If I was dreaming, I didn’t want to wake up.

Sex with Khi at the hotel had been fabulous despite leading to more awkwardness. Sex with Khi when we weren’t surrounded by a fog of anger and irritation was ramping up to be the best I’d ever had.

But were we being stupid?

Or maybe it was just me being stupid?

Khi made it very clear that whatever this new situation was between us, he wanted casual and no attachments, nothing serious.

While I wasn’t looking for a ring and forever, I’d definitely developed feelings toward Khi recently. Sometimes those feelings retreated back to the negative emotions of the past, but mostly I found myself living in a surreal world where the guy I used to dislike—the guy who left no doubt about hating me—had grown on me to the point where I looked forward to his grumpy refusal of the coffee I made for him. I wanted to spend time with him—even when he was being pissy and aloof—because I’d glimpsed beyond that façade and seen a different Khi.

Was it smart to get involved with a guy who clearly had so many hang-ups about showing emotion and being vulnerable? Probably not, but we weren’t getting involved, were we? No, it was just sex.

Yeah, keep telling yourself that and see how it turns out when Khi runs for the hills once he realizes you’re falling for him.

Didn’t matter, wouldn’t happen.

At least, that’s what I told myself.

And really, could anyone blame Khi for the issues he had with emotions? He’d had a shitty childhood and teen years, gave up his college ball dream too early because of his knee injury, and wasted seven years of his life with a lying, cheating bastard.

Obviously, issues were to be expected.

But you think you can be the one who breaks through all of those issues, all of those walls, and convinces the man who has just recently moved from hating to tolerating you—as long as his dick is buried in you—that maybe admitting feelings and building a relationship is a good idea?

I pursed my lips as I lathered soap all over, paying special attention to the most important nooks and crannies. Maybe it was ridiculous to even contemplate, but I thought there was potential between me and Khi—maybe, possibly, perhaps—and I wanted to see where this little jaunt in my life’s journey would take me.

It needs to take you right back to bed so Khi can fuck you senseless and nowhere else. Don’t get all romantic and idealistic about a guy who very clearly offered nothing more than a good dicking.

Why did my head have to be so cynical when my heart wanted to believe in fairytales and happily ever afters?

Why do you have to jump straight from the suggestion of hot, casual sex to hearts and flowers and forever?

Whatever. I had no illusions of Khi declaring his undying love for me and asking me to spend the rest of our lives together. I swallowed thickly as I rinsed the soap from my body.

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