THE INITIATION: Secret Society Dark Romance (4Horsemen Series Book 1) by Elena Monroe

Author:Elena Monroe [Monroe, Elena]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2020-08-01T23:00:00+00:00

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I couldn’t tell you which drink I swallowed down that had me hellbent on getting the truth to ease my aching mind.

My head pounded, trying to make sense of everything I blissfully ignored for so long. There was no reset button on this kind of stuff. Once the seed was planted, there was no stopping the growth.

I was drunk on theories by my third cocktail as I sat at the bar with Jus by my side. Her chair was swiveled away from me as some handsome guy chatted her up. He was her type, and that wasn’t easy to find. He screamed rock and roll, long hair, and a bad boy with a pretty face and an ugly past.

Toxic city.

Every ex she had that I knew about was flaky and pretentious, and a downright bum—the kind where their “art” mattered more than paying their rent.

It was certainly a very specific type.

Ordering another cocktail, I decided this was controlled damage; the way Khaos had taught me. This drink was the bat and gulping it down was the shattering that my body craved without the spiraling.

My body was buzzing right along with my mind when my mind drifted back to what had me running from home full speed the second I turned 18.

The smothering of religion down my throat from a young age only ramped up when my dad owed money to the wrong people. He thought God would pity him and somehow make money appear, but I knew better. No pity came without a price, and we didn’t have two pennies to rub together for that kind of payment.

One day, a strange man with the same malicious energy came to my school to pick me up in middle school, and I thought my parents were busy or caught up at the restaurant. It wasn’t until later that I learned my life was being used as a threat.

That was the moment in my life I learned what a mask was, how to wear it, how to hide all the feelings, and how important control truly was. To survive that kind of trauma, you had to grow some bad habits—ones that erased the uncomfortable feeling, because now you were armed with defenses.

The memory bounced around in my head and turned my smile upside down, even with the drink in my hand. I knew the ins and outs of that time of my life. I knew exactly how I ended up a control freak. The only thing in my life bullying me for answers was all the secrecy hanging in the air around Grimm.

I never had this kind of desperate need for answers when I worked for Vic. He was just as controlling as I was, and maybe I found some kind of comfort in that, enough to not ask questions. With Grimm, I was taken captive and had nothing but time to sort out how much I didn’t know.

Truly.

This wasn’t amnesia or some kind of trauma blocking out bad memories because it was what was best for me.

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