Rock the Cradle of Love by Jen FitzGerald

Author:Jen FitzGerald [FitzGerald, Jen]
Language: eng
Format: epub
ISBN: 9781948236034
Publisher: Knotted Hearts Publishing
Published: 2017-12-20T18:30:00+00:00

Chapter Ten

Noah brushes his teeth and kills time while Taylor puts Emma back to sleep. Nerves bubble in his stomach like hydrogen peroxide and taste just as bad, but he can’t take the standoff anymore. The first week after S’more’s party and their first time together had been everything Noah’d expected. They’d taken care of and played with Emma; played Xbox smashed up against one another, on the sofa or on the floor, legs entwined; watched Netflix and cuddled; kissed a lot; and had some sort of sex almost every night. Life was good, idyllic.

Of course, it couldn’t last, but Noah hadn’t expected things to change the way they had. Something’s been up with Taylor for a couple of weeks now. It hadn’t quite registered at first because, of course, sex every night just isn’t realistic.

He’s not sure what’s wrong or what changed, but Noah’s tired of the weirdness and he doesn’t want to avoid the issue any longer.

Taylor closes the bedroom door and undresses down to his underwear. After adjusting the volume of the baby monitor, he slides into bed. Snuggling up to Noah, he trails kisses along Noah’s collarbone.

Taylor’s acting like nothing’s wrong, but Noah’s been carrying around this weight for a couple of days. Whatever this is, it’s not healthy, and his asexuality presents enough challenges as it is.

“Can we talk about something?” Noah’s heart’s thumping hard, but it’s not from Taylor’s overt display of affection.

“Sure, what’s up?” Taylor pulls back a bit, settles onto what’s become his pillow.

Noah’s never been this reticent to bring up a topic, and this is the absolute most important thing they’ve ever had to discuss. “Do you want to have sex with me?”

Taylor’s eyebrows shoot up. “Right now?”

“Right now. Or ever again.”

“Of course I do.” He leans in to suck on Noah’s nipple as if to prove his point.

Noah slides a hand over Taylor’s head and then cups his chin to bring their gazes level. “Then why have you been avoiding it for the last week and a half, two weeks? Every time we start something or we get so far, you pull back. And I know you’re aroused because I can feel it.”

Taylor sits up and slings his arms around his knees. “Took you long enough to notice,” he says although it’s not said unkindly.

“What’s that supposed to mean?” Noah’s confused. “I cottoned on a week ago, and I wasn’t sure until last night if it was just—I don’t know—something going on that had nothing to do with me and would resolve itself, but that’s not the case, is it?”

A large sigh heaves Taylor’s chest and he shakes his head. “No. I…”

“Are you having second thoughts about us?”

“What? No, of course not. Look. I did some research. About asexuality.” He looks everywhere but at Noah. “The website said that people who are asexual can enjoy sex without being physically attracted to the person they’re with. I’m not sure how I feel about that, to be honest.”

“Okay, and?”

“And I don’t want to just be a way for you to get off when we have sex.

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