Faithless: A Salvation Society Novel by Megan Green & Salvation Society

Author:Megan Green & Salvation Society [Green, Megan]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Wild Thorns Press
Published: 2020-09-05T16:00:00+00:00

Chapter Eleven

Shane

I glance at my watch for the tenth time in as many seconds, once again not really seeing the time. My fingers twitch and my toes curl inside my shoes, my nerves setting my entire body on edge.

Why the fuck had I agreed to this?

After work, I’d gotten home to a quiet house for the first time since Gracie was born. It was strange, walking in and not hearing the sound of little voices. I hadn’t quite known what to do with myself, so I’d headed straight for the bathroom. I showered, shaved, took a ridiculous amount of time styling my hair, and changed my clothes four times before I finally settled on what I’m currently wearing. I told myself I was doing it to pass the time, because what the hell else was I supposed to do until it was time to leave?

But now, as I stand here and wait for Kate to arrive, this whole thing feels… date-like.

Which is ridiculous. Kate isn’t interested in me in any way other than as the father to her nieces. As the husband to her late sister.

So why had I spent nearly two hours getting ready like a damn sixteen-year-old girl?

This is stupid, I tell myself as I glance at my watch yet again. You’re acting like a fool. There’s nothing wrong with spending a few hours with another adult at a festival. There’s nothing wrong with having a friend.

But if I was being honest with myself… did I really only see myself being friends with Kate Mitchell?

She’d been a lifesaver these past few weeks, stepping in to help me in ways I hadn’t even realized I needed help. The hours we spend together with Gracie and Ellie had quickly turned into the highlight of my days, and I found myself counting down the minutes until I’d see her again.

In the few short weeks she’s been in my life, she’s somehow managed to awaken a part of me that has lain dormant for years. A part of me I hadn’t realized was missing.

I’ve told myself a thousand times that it’s too soon. My wife has been gone less than a month, and here I am already thinking about another woman.

It’s too soon.

It’s too soon.

It. Is. Too. Soon.

But no matter how many times and in how many ways I repeat the words over and over in my head, I can’t seem to get them to stick. Because as soon as I see Kate’s smile, her beautiful face as she laughs with my girls, all I can think is how much I don’t want her to leave. How much I wish she could stay here, with us.

Forever.

Then as I lay my head down on my pillow at night, the faint scent of Felicity’s perfume wafting up from the sheets, I’m reminded again of how wrong my feelings are.

It’s bad enough that I’m already starting to fall for another woman.

But for that other woman to be my late wife’s sister…

What the fuck is wrong with me?

Maybe she won’t show, I tell myself.

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