Control (Meet Me in the Dark Series) by Jade Dare

Author:Jade Dare [Dare, Jade]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2022-01-16T16:00:00+00:00

Chapter 10

What are you doing? What are you doing? What. Are. You. Doing?

My mind is demanding an answer, but I don't have one. I can't explain why I've been awake for... I don't even know how long now, and am still just lying here, in the darkness, in silence, in Jackson's arms.

I woke up, blinking the darkness away until I realized... I was in darkness. Utter darkness. My eyes widened, as if that would help me see anything, but it was the groan behind me, the arm tightening on my middle, that quickly reminded me of everything. That I was in Jackson's bedroom. That he was the sole reason for the ache between my thighs and at my ass. That it was him holding me tight to his body.

I don't know how long I was asleep, or what time it is now. His dark room doesn't let me figure out if it's still daytime, or if we've slept into the night. What I do know is that I've been lying here for a while, too long, asking myself why I'm still here. Enjoying the feel of his body cocooning mine far too much. Letting my heart do a very, very dangerous thing; reach for the man behind me.

It's stupid, absolutely foolish, but I, like an idiot, allow my heart this moment. Allow it to have Jackson for just a little while. I let myself believe we could ever again be as we are right now. I deceive myself into believing this could ever be a reality, anything more than sex. Because inside, I know. If we had never fucked, we wouldn't have ended up in this bed together. If it weren't for my car breaking down, we probably wouldn't have even ended up at his house. If it weren't for him wanting to fulfill my, and his, fantasy, we would never have come together at all. It all comes back to sex, because that is all I will ever mean to him.

And that's all he should mean to me. It's what I agreed to. It's what he offered me, and I accepted. I can't want more. It's not right, and it's not fair to him.

It's not fair that he's lying here with a woman he's fucked, and I'm lying here with a man I am realizing more and more with each minute I remain in his arms, that I love. I love him. I don't know how I let this happen, but I love him. I don't know why I let this happen, but I love him. I don't know if I could have done anything to stop it from happening, but I love him. Fuck.

I can't keep this going now. I have to go let him go. Because he thinks we're one thing, and now, to me, we're so much more. And to continue letting him believe we're just two people fulfilling each other's fantasies, when I'd just be falling deeper and deeper each time we meet, would be a lie.

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