You Belong With Me by Jeff Erno

Author:Jeff Erno
Language: eng
Format: mobi, epub, pdf
Publisher: Harmony Ink Press
Published: 2013-02-03T13:58:51+00:00

Chapter 9

SATURDAY morning I woke up a little after nine. The very first thing I did when I rolled out of bed was pad over to my window to see if Brad was stirring. His shades were still drawn, and there were no messages on my phone. He was probably still asleep. The last thing he’d said to me was that he’d call me sometime in the morning.

I wondered if this was what it meant to be in love. I was crazy about Brad, and he was the very first thought in my head when I awoke in the morning, but I had a tendency to be obsessive about everything I liked. When the Harry Potter movies were released, I was standing in line at midnight to watch the very first showing. When I found an ice cream flavor at Baskin-Robbins that I liked, I’d go there a thousand times and order it until I literally got sick of it.

But I’d never felt obsessive in this way about another person, certainly not another person who’d kissed me. And last night was by far the most beautiful and romantic night of my entire life. Well, when it comes to the romance category, that’s really not saying much. Brad was the only person I’d ever kissed.

Although I had no basis for comparison, I decided that Brad was an excellent kisser. I was impressed by the way he was both gentle and assertive. It seemed almost like he was forcing himself to hold back a bit. He made me feel like he was very attracted to me, and yet he was so careful with me, like maybe he thought I might break. To have someone like Brad, who was so much bigger and stronger than me, be so tender with me, handling me so delicately, made me feel special.

At the LGBT youth group, one time we talked about this dynamic, the way that two guys or two girls relate to each other. The consensus was that when people asked, “Who’s the guy in the relationship and who’s the girl?” it was an offensive question. Everyone said that a gay relationship did not have a “guy” and a “girl.” It had two guys or two girls, and that’s why it was “gay.” Both of the other guys present insisted that they were not attracted to other boys who acted like girls, and if they were, then they might as well just be straight. Everyone agreed and laughed.

But I didn’t really agree with them, not completely. God forbid that I speak up and contradict them, but for my entire life, I’d always related more to girls than to boys. And it wasn’t that I felt I was trans. I had no desire to identify as female. I didn’t want gender reassignment surgery. But I was more sensitive than most other guys. I liked a lot of things that most people considered “girly.” I had softer mannerisms, and when I got into my teens, I discovered

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