What's Not Mine by Nora Decter
Author:Nora Decter
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: ECW Press
Published: 2024-04-02T00:00:00+00:00
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Whatâs up? Ains asks when I get back to the blanket. She and the kids have moved a few feet away from Rick, whoâs laid out on a towel, hat covering his eyes, one hand circling the beer can nestled in the sand beside him. Since Iâve been gone, theyâve expanded Dougâs hole and connected it to the lake by way of a complex irrigation system, which Emily tells me about breathlessly before dumping a pail of water in to demonstrate. The water splashes into the sand, but thereâs not enough to flow down to the lakeâit just soaks in and disappears. Doug bounces in excitement anyway, and Emily runs back to the lake to refill the bucket and try again.
I cut my foot, I tell Ains.
Oh no! she exclaims, seeing the bandage.
Itâs fine, I say. It was just hard to walk on without a shoe. I ran into Cole, and he got the first aid kit from his car, cleaned it up for me.
Oh, she says.
I think Iâm gonna go for a swim to the point, I say.
What about your foot? Ains asks, her face hasnât recovered from my mention of Cole.
Itâs fine, I say again. Doesnât really hurt.
Which is true. After Cole left, I took another pill.
Iâll change the bandage after, I tell her, feeling much better now, unbothered almost, even by Rick over there.
Okay, she says. Watch out for boats.
I can watch the kids when Iâm done, if you want to go for a swim, I say.
She waves me away. Itâs fine, she says.
Itâs not fine. But I donât let that stop me. We both love swimming to the point, usually do it together, resting on the warm rocks when we get there before swimming back. The knife is still in my top, between my breasts, the spandex of my suit holding it close while I walk to the water. No hesitation, like a warrior woman, I submerge myself.
The cold catches my breath for a second, but I kick forward under the surface for as long as I can keep myself from rising. When I do, I put my head back down and swim out into the deep water.
Soon Iâm far enough out that the voices are faint and unthreatening. I flip over onto my back and float.
Imagine all the water disappeared and we ended up on bottom of the lake, Dad said to me once when we came here for a swim. It was so deep, he explained, because the lake formed when a meteor smashed into the Laurentian Plateau, blasting a crater in the rock. If all the water vanished, weâd be in a valley filled with strange rock formations and crevasses.
On his command Iâd pictured it, imagining the fall, or imagining no fall but just appearing at the bottom of the empty lake, transported by a genie or a witchâs spell. If it was meant to spook me, it didnât, or I trained it not to. Instead, it made the fact of the water feel more miraculous, holding me there.
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