Too Near the Edge by Lynn Osterkamp

Author:Lynn Osterkamp
Language: eng
Format: mobi, epub
Tags: boulder colorado, paranormal mystery, spirit communication, new age, grief therapist, scams, female sleuth, spirit guide
Publisher: Lynn Osterkamp
Published: 2011-06-01T09:56:22.280174+00:00

Chapter 22

Sharon was scheduled Friday afternoon for another try at contacting Adam. I called her Friday morning to see if it was still a go. While I had no intentions of being bullied out of working with her, I wanted to make sure she hadn’t changed her mind. But despite Waycroft’s brouhaha, she wanted to keep on.

We skipped looking through Adam’s stuff this time. Like before, I had Sharon bring a picture of him as well as his favorite tee shirt from the annual Bolder-Boulder 10K race. Before getting her set in the apparition chamber, we walked over to the creek again to relax, talk about Adam, and explore her motivations for trying to contact him.

“I miss him so much. It’s like this huge cloud of sadness that hangs over my head,” Sharon said as we strolled along the creek path among joggers, mothers pushing strollers, and dogs pulling their guardians by leashes. “Look—all these people enjoying their lives. But in here inside my cloud everything is dimmer and grayer than out there. I find myself wondering how the world can go on as if nothing had changed—when Adam is gone from it forever.”

“Of course you feel that way, Sharon. Most people have that experience after a loss. It’s hard to look around and see life moving along when you feel depressed.” We came to a bench on the creek bank, sat down and gazed out at the rushing water below.

Sharon sat quietly for several minutes, and then continued softly, almost as if talking sadly to herself. “I know I have a lot to live for—Nathan, my job, good friends. But I don’t have Adam. All the thoughts and joys and little jokes I want to share with him go unshared. My daily life has a hollow feeling, a big space that he used to fill. Nothing is the way it was when we were together, and it will never be that way again.” She sobbed inconsolably. “I loved him so much, and he loved me. I’ll never find anyone else I can love so totally and who loves me that much.”

I knew she needed to grieve. There’s so much bottled up inside after a loss. “It’s true that your life won’t be the same,” I said, thinking to myself that if Sharon could actually reach Adam, she might feel a lot better. I thought about one of my former clients who couldn’t stop blaming herself for not having somehow noticed warning signs of her husband’s fatal heart attack. She had nightmares where he was drowning and begged her to save him but she couldn’t help him. When she finally contacted him in the apparition chamber, he told her how much he loved her, what a wonderful wife she had been, and that she couldn’t have prevented his death. After that, she was able to accept his death and her nightmares stopped.

“Somehow I have to move on, build a new life,” Sharon went on. “Sometimes I don’t think I can do it.

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