The World at My Feet by Catherine Isaac
Author:Catherine Isaac
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Simon & Schuster UK
Published: 2021-01-06T00:00:00+00:00
Chapter 35
Ellie
Colette opens the door to her office with the air of a latter-day Mary Poppins. Straight-backed and with an efficient smile that gives the impression that sheâs here to sort out all this fuss.
âGood afternoon, Ellie. How are you?â she asks, as if I last saw her yesterday, not over two years ago.
âFine,â I say automatically, as she closes the door. âApart from being a gibbering wreck, obviously.â
I spent time choosing the right outfit before I left, aiming to look fashionable, but with optimum levels of comfort. Now Iâm here, damp rings are visible under each arm of my softspun top and there is blood on my trousers from the hangnail I tore off on the journey. It was every bit as bad as I knew it would be, despite Dadâs efforts to distract me by chatting. When he ran out of steam, he switched on the midday radio show just as the presenter announced, âToday weâll be discussing the House of Lords, pancreatitis and sex shops on the A1.â He turned it off again.
Colette invites me to sit, which I do, in a chair that is new and more comfortable than the last. She sits opposite me and crosses her legs. Sheâs wearing glossy brogues, wide-leg trousers and a pale blouse buttoned up to the spot where her clavicles meet. The ensemble has a slightly masculine edge that counterbalances the soft features of her face and the swish of her honey-coloured bob.
âYou certainly donât look like a gibbering wreck,â she says. âThatâs a lovely outfit.â
I lift both arms in the air. âThe sweat rings set it off a treat, donât they? Theyâre a special, exclusive embellishment available to agoraphobics, nervous wrecks and general wet lettuces.â
âThatâs a lot of self-deprecation in one sentence, Ellie.â
âIt feels rather justified at the moment,â I say.
She opens my file. âSoâ¦â
âDid you finish The West Wing?â I ask.
She looks up. âWhat?â
âLast time I was here you were making your way through the box set.â
âOh. Yes, actually.â She looks down again.
âWhat did you think of the ending?â
She tilts her chin as she looks at me. âEllie, shall we get started?â
âOkay. Though, I ought to say⦠about the last time I saw you. Sorry for leaving so abruptly.â
âItâs quite all right. I went shopping instead.â
My mouth parts.
âJust kidding.â She smiles. âAnd I ought to say: well done for coming here. I know how difficult it is. Now why donât you tell me whatâs been happening?â
Itâs Guy I tell her about first. How we met. How I have growing feelings for him. And that, while I know how attracted he is to me â he doesnât even attempt to hide it â I am painfully aware that the thing that is stopping this from evolving into a proper relationship is my agoraphobia.
I feel self-conscious, like a teenager writing to a problem page. So I also tell her about the growth of my Instagram business, the one area of my life that is going well. I donât want her to think Iâm a complete loser.
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