The Blue Room Vol. 7 by Kailin Gow

Author:Kailin Gow [Gow, Kailin]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Amazon: B00UKHNYXS
Publisher: KailinGowBooks.com
Published: 2015-03-16T00:00:00+00:00

Chapter 5

I hate to leave Staci behind. I'm still not sure what's going on with her: how she is, what she's feeling, what she's thinking. It feels like she has gone somewhere I cannot reach: a depth of despair or fear that is beyond anything I have ever known myself.

No, that's not true. I have known it once. When I learned the news of my wife's death, I was just like Staci. Completely catatonic. I shut down, just as she did. I sat in a chair just the way she did, immobile, not speaking, trying to shut out the outside world, trying to deny that it even existed. Just like her. I wanted to die in those days. I felt so betrayed by life, by all of existence. How could the world bring such a beautiful, sweet, smart, perfect girl to me and then take her away again, in a single heartbeat? I remember the despair I felt in those days. That's what it was like: watching Staci. That's what it was like: holding her.

Did I do wrong by having sex with her? I don't know. She initiated it, to be sure: but then again we never spoke, not once. Was that goodbye sex, then? Her bidding farewell to me in the midst of her hatred for me? Or was it something else, something more? Was she holding on to me for dear life as the only safe thing in the midst of all her chaos: the one thing she could rely on in a world where you can't rely on anybody? I don't know. All I know is how beautiful it was to hold her in my arms, to kiss her, to caress her. All I know is how paramount it is to me that Staci feels safe.

I check my phone. There's one voicemail: from Mrs. Walters. Saying something very strange indeed.

“Mr. Blue, this is Josephine Walters. I'm just calling to let you know that the girl you mentioned never showed up. It's like she's vanished into the night. She's completely gone. I don't know what to tell you, sir. We've never had something like this happen before.”

This is getting stranger and stranger. Who could this mysterious brown-eyed girl be? And what was she doing with Mr. S.?

I head to Mrs. Walters' office, but it's already shut. I guess even Mrs. Walters has to take some time off eventually. I realize I never even imagined her sleeping. In my mind Mrs. Walters is a 24-hour-a-day, 7-day-a-week institution, a venerable cog in the Blue Room Machine. But even she has to sleep sometimes, I guess.

Luckily for me I have the master key. I enter Mrs. Walters' office and turn on her computer. I'm able to login; part of being the chairman means getting a list of all server passwords in the building. I start going through the records, looking for something, anything, a clue. I see STACI ATUSSI in bold black letters. I see her bookings with me, Mr. X., and I smile inwardly.

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